Isma(El)

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‘Sober Choices, High Questions’ Installation 2022 - Poem and Photographic components Each image, by order of appearance represents a verse. Chronologically written from age 12 (see previous post) until my current present. Photography and Poem by me. PART 2 (age 19) After returning to my body I chose to live, sober Tasted everything, and I saw all I could lay my eyes on, I heard every word sound and song, felt everything and it felt like love (age 20) some questions were answered, some were self-revealing, some of them emerged and most of them remained unanswered, but it was different This time, I could feel them, I was aware of the growth, the pleasure, the effort, the work and the setbacks, the purpose, the peace in the pace of growth (age 21) once aware of this, certain things become worthy of experiencing. Worthy of feeling the pain, the sacrifice, the loss and the grieving, the solitude, the heartbreak, the balance in learning is the evidence of growth (age 22) To embark on the choice of life I recognise that questions had to be accepted and felt, soberly and it was beyond fucking bittersweet (age 23) in chaos and unsettled living, in acceptance and bliss she came to me and I let myself walk to her. Giving myself was easy sharing myself was scary and sweet (NOW) I made sober choices, and kept high questions Now my plate is always full and every flavour touches my sober tongue but if the pan were to run empty and the food became bitter, I’d want an answer for that

Preview: T4T no Upside! Isma(el) @e.l.bango Artista-hifenado trans e produtor do projeto @theblackertheberryproject , El desenvolve arquivos visuais, explorando a memória viva através da presença multi-corpórea, do som e da imagem. Vai estar em modo DJ na noite @_t4t4t4t_ no Upside, neste sábado, com videojogos, zines, e awareness com informações e materiais da @akosmicare e @gatportugal . “T4T recebe-vos com muita nostalgia numa espécie de retorno ao nosso quarto de adolescência: esse lugar de descoberta interior por excelência, onde muitas de nós deram os seus primeiros passos na expressão autêntica das nossas identidades ✨️ Tirem os sapatos à entrada, fiquem confortáveis, peguem um comando ou uma zine, e bora relaxar e sonhar juntis 💖” Sábado, 16/05, Upside ——— Trans hyphenated artist and producer for @theblackertheberryproject , El develops visual archives, exploring living memory through multi-bodied presence, sound and image. He will be in DJ mode for the @_t4t4t4t_ night on the Upside, this Saturday night, with zines, video games and awareness info and materials from @akosmicare and @gatportugal . “T4T welcomes you with lots of nostalgia, in a return of sorts to our teenage bedroom: that place of personal discovery, where many of us took our first steps in the authentic expression of our identities ✨️ Take your shoes off at the entrance, get confortable, grab a controller or a zine, and let's relax and dream together 💖” Saturday, 16/05, Upside

Talkin cause i hav a mouf: they told me to write the caption and so all Imma say is STREAM OSEIAS AND OTTO OUT TODAY!!! RIGHT NOW TODAY!!!! Signed ruizinho xoxo

NO AR: @e.l.bango com um programa dedicado ao Black History Month - em especial influências da Black music norte-americana 🔉📺 Liguem-se no nosso website ou mixcloud

q pelo #bonito 💍 m’encanta muito muito muuito cocinar y é isso, às vezes queria ser como o ar 🏹

last 12 months were difficulty level: real fucking hard but we made it by the powers of friendship, laughter and crying with the 1s u love. blessings were endless and so was the overcoming of big fears. thank u for letting me love on u all, im really rich off the amount of love that held me up along the year. every time u get to take another step in ya life be thankful, grateful and aware u’re supported along the way, don’t take that for granted and remember - walking alone is a fallacy. keep ya head up and hands linked wit ur people, 2016 season 2 just dropped, hit the quan ayeee

For the family that can’t be with us 🫀 Xmas is the hardest time of year for some of us, harder than our own birthday or new year’s blues Grieving loved ones while celebrating with family, whether biological or chosen, requires remembering and accepting the pain and honour of making an extra plate for those who won’t physically sit next to us yet will always have a place at the table This year I realised I could’ve been an uncle by now, it took me through another deep wave of grief, feeling like my family tree’s been interrupted or unfinished is a weekly thought I have, so every time these deep waves hit I crave present time with family, I offer myself the love my sister would’ve showered me with and above all I keep it pushing: stationary/stagnant feelings cannot flower healing buds Idk if there’s much more I can do to ease my heart during this time of the year, and to be honest, it wasn’t as difficult as it usually is, so I must be doing something right by this heart of mine Happy celebrations to u lot xo! Wiv love, Uncle El!

O ciclo LUZES regressa este mês com @e.l.bango para um concerto em direto do estúdio da Quântica. 12 Dezembro, 20h - Travessa do Giestal 2A 1300-278 Alcântara, Lisba ou em directo no nosso website 💿

welcome 2 ur life!

mr etho-naut and his (e)motions know the transits are the way through (and the way out)

big up 00h