from august 25 + 27, 2023 at sofi stadium. re-sharing these because they have to exist on my profile.
Since my first Metallica concert in 2008 when I sat all the way at the very top at the Save Mart Center in Fresno, I wanted to see Metallica up close. It took me 6 times and 15 years but finally got to smell them. I even got a high five from James and Rob! That high five exchange with James was important because we exchanged more than just handsâŚwe exchanged covid. I have never been sicker. Youâre listening to Enter Sandman, Iâm the reason for a cancelled show letting 70,000 people down. We are not the same.
âwhen you change yourself, you change the worldâ.
One of the first Gojira lyrics that resonated with me. Itâs something Iâve been contemplating for over 10 years since I started mindfulness meditation. I feel like the line could mean a number of things but to me, it means this: when you change the way you look at things, the thing youâre looking at changes too. Bottom line, perspective shapes everything.
Washed away the dust and gave a new lease of life
Its mystical force
I grab it now
and praise this lord
of earth and stone
Make passage for souls awaken
So it returns
to where itâs always been,
with the gods
Now coming,
I feel the love
It comes from on high
I know the words
But now I feel it inside
It grows, itâs there
And all it comes
From the sky
From the sky
Last year I wanted to write a feature-length screenplay. I was having some trouble with motivation. I wasnât blocked - it was deeper than that. I told myself, âall I need to give it is 20 minutes a day, every day.â Writing sucks. Sitting there in front of a blank page is one of the most weirdly uncomfortable experiences. I started by journaling - getting all the junk in my mind out of the way. Journaling led to ideas, characters, plot points. I began to stack days of 20 minute writing sessions consistently. 20 minutes was the minimum, but knowing the kind of person that I am, I almost always exceeded 20 minutes because âmight as well since Iâm already here.â A few months of this and I finished a script. âTHE DOG DAYS OF MAYâ. I didnât think much of it. I thought it kinda sucked actually and to be honest I still think it kinda does. I donât think Iâll ever make this film. But a while ago my buddy Monty convinced me to submit it to @scriptapalooza where it placed as a Quarter-Finalist. I found this out during summer this year but I didnât think it was worth sharing. Sure it was in the top 8% of scripts submitted but my mind and my fear said âwhy isnât it in the top 1%?â even though I knew it wasnât that good. But I donât want to think that way anymore. I used to think only big wins were worth celebrating and sharing. That mindset isnât going to get me very far Iâve realized. So here I am, celebrating and sharing a small win. Iâm proud of myself. Finishing the script is a huge achievement on its own. Anything beyond that is a plus - and I was lucky enough to get a little bit extra on this one. With all that said, celebrate your small wins! Small wins are what lead to big changes. Iâm posting this to close the chapter that was The Dog Days of May as I continue to regain the writing consistency I know Iâm capable of. âđź
