four years wed - thanks for running lines with me and all the great meals we ate and troubleshooting my technology and carrying me to bed when I’m drowsy and mostly for your perspective & your character. I fell in love this year more. please never die and never stop kissing me
Karan & Peyton are 9 years older than I was when we started filming Jessie. Currently NINE years older than the character of Jessie. And they and Kevin are living in NYC for real and thriving in theater. And I have a kid of my own ✨ family
We sat under the full moon— the cold supermoon— reminiscing on our life as a family of two, and told the child I was harboring that we were ready to become three. By midday, Felix was born under christmas lights with snow outside our bedroom window, right into her father’s hands. Joshua was an incredible teammate, and somehow didn’t get pulled into the tub and drowned and is taking such good care of his girls on this side of things. I was fortified by an incredible birth team, and the strength and wisdom of some women who have supported me on this journey near and far.
Her hair is made of silk and her breath smells like vanilla ice cream and every chirp, squeak and whimper is music and everytime I look away and look back, she’s gotten smaller somehow. I know too soon, I’ll look away and look back and she’ll be bigger and bigger still so for now I’d like to spend my days trapped under the immovable 8 pounds of Felix Winter Dun.
I’ve been a lot of things but her home, a grow light, a portal to bring a new soul into the world— these are my greatest honors. Welcome to earth lil moonbeam. Love you forever 🌙✨
home and well celebrated in the most ethereal way by our village ✨🫒🕊️
the child’s grandmothers giggled and aunties swooned and the uncles matched on accident and a couple lifers flew in and our people were so generous in support and joy and gadgets and teeny tiny onesies
thank you MVP @lauren.germain for creating this magic in your impossibly chic home and all the thoughtful and silly details ✨ olive you frfr
I have so much gratitude, I could name names and details on and on but I have much tiny laundry to do. this kid is so lucky 🤍
ty @sanamceline@chrishoran20
dress: @bardot , boots: @miumiu
jewels: @megamegaprojects , @sterlingforever
they say it doesn’t rain much in california but we got caught in a downpour of shower love. friends flew in from denver, atlanta, new york, canada, random work & touring & made time to welcome this baby to the world before we went home to columbus ✨
skye hoppus ily, thank you for all you teach me & opening your home and heart and rallying the squad for this west coast celebration of new life 🐣
thank you @sanamceline@isabellejlange c/o @chrishoran20 & @nhinako_makeup@brazilianbodybar for getting me clothed & ready ✨
photos by @fog.again
🤎🧸🪵 it’s getting colder outside & my little world is getting warmer
my big brother creates really special images & ever since we were lil kids, he’d always let me play. we could create whole worlds in the woods. now we’re grown and we’ve built worlds and families of our own, but they still overlap— we live in the same town again, different woods this time but we still wander, all together now. he gave me a sister and one of my very best friends and she’s also talented at capturing moments beautifully — he took the digitals, she took the film photos
they made me+joshua an aunt+uncle, and watching them become parents changed me, and now it’s wild our kids are gonna have the same age difference we do.
making joshua’s parents grandparents, making his sisters aunts & his brother an uncle, giving my parents a grandkid & my niece a cousin & returning the favor for chase&sarah, these are among the greatest honors I’ve been feeling along this journey. don’t get me started on josh
it’s been a road to this point & there’s still miles to go but I’m just really grateful to be sharing it, in all the big & small ways. I couldn’t have imagined this depth of support and warmth, and that’s on family
happy birthday Jeff ✨
Bear with me, I’ve never been a public griever, and have a hard time sharing fragile feelings with strangers. Meanwhile I’ve thought about him every day for the past six months. Ok see at the beginning of the year, I lost a dear friend, cherished collaborator and mentor in Jeff Baena. It’s been very hard and heavy, and a lot of people lost him, because he was like the nucleus of this whole Jeff universe.
I’ve discovered the stages of grief aren’t linear; they’re like space stations I’ve docked at, in between periods of floating. My hope is they eventually feel more like satellites— always orbiting, often in view, but not a place to live.
But today on his birthday, I want you to know a few things about Jeff— he was generous. Warm while principled. Intentional with a casual lilt. Usually right about stuff we have no way of knowing about. Spirited in debate.
His standard for quality was in the ingredients— just like his casts. He had a menagerie of players and games, and it was a real collection.
He believed in me. I feel really proud to be able to say that. Jeff was a rare person in the world who gave me the dignity of introducing myself, of being taken at my present. And I liked who he saw. Like good friendship helps you love yourself, good collaboration gives you the chance to be the best evolution of yourself.
From the moment we met, Jeff was an active person in my life- personally and professionally. He somehow saw me, trusted me, and vouched for me from jump. He brought me to my first film festival, after putting me in his and Alison Brie’s film Horse Girl, a film largely improvised based on an outline— which is a process he was accustomed to working but was a big leap for me. He never doubted me.
During the pandemic, his zoom game nights were a periscope to community, and our lil families became close. Then he put me in his next film, and brought me to my second film festival run. Also to some of the best restaurants we’ve ever been to, to the most beautiful places I’ve worked, to the most enriching relationships, to a point of freedom from the versions of “Debby Ryan” I thought I should be.
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