16.04.2026 - snowfield
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I hate me more than I hate you.
Not because I find myself disgusting,
But because I wish I were like all of you.
Instead I am just wandering,
Waiting to find a meaning in this world,
Hoping that things will stop feeling distorted
I tried to stay patient.
But there is no good choice in this world,
Nothing can be convenient.
Good sense never mattered,
We, humans, are inconsistent.
I wish I could be you, never thinking about it afterward,
Moving forward,
Never noticing my own contradictions.
Things that I canโt cover
It makes me despise each of my actions,
Bad, good, or things done just to please others,
Fitting into the mold is lying, it is makeup,
Being a rebellious conscience is being self-centered,
Being kind means sucking up.
Choices are meant to be shattered.
I wish I were you, naive.
In a world where my choices and I could live,
This world isnโt wrong.
Maybe I am?
Freedom became a burden,
Who am I ?
I am my own burden,
I am my own cage,
I am me.
30.01.2026 - drowning
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ib: @karal.fx
music: @antentofficial@vowl.music
first edit of 2026 ๐
Have you ever heard about me?
Cold like the snow,
Solid as if something were underneath me.
Fear is a mask about to blow,
An illusion our minds create to protect us.
A feeling you can feel through your plexus.
Fear leads to hate.
Fear leads to devotion.
It consumes faith,
Turning it into conviction.
Turning us against each other,
For things we should have kept deeper.
Have you ever heard about me?
Who am I?
I am my own burden,
I am my own cage,
I am me.
"Drowning in our tears is the price we pay for love."
19.09.2025 - drugs
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rm : @j4xxfx
Reality is awful.
You try to escape from it,
But your own reality becomes your prison.
Everything you want becomes unattainable,
You wish that your dreams and goals becomes real,
But they never will,
Not because you can't do it.
Because it slips away from your fingers,
Not only because your lazy,
You just live in the dream that they will come true.
And this is only when you finally came back from that dream.
That you realize, that your wasting your time.
Who am I ?
I am a prisonner of my own drug.
I am a prisonner of my own prison.
I am my own burden.
I am my own cage.
I am me.
22.07.2025 - dark snow night
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ib : @karal.fx
Late night thoughts :
Have you ever felt that nothing ever goes your way ?
That everyone and everything turn their back at you.
That the world is a game where you are the character that everyone can play.
Is there a person on earth for you ?
Is there a place where you belong ?
Is there a way where things don't go wrong?
Is that me?
Am I the problem ?
That is the questions you probably ask yourself.
Someone once said to me : "You have gold in your hands".
But there is no point of having gold in my hands.
If I have darkness in my brain.
I can't moove if no one allows me to.
Is that me too?
Who am I?
I am my own burden.
I am my own cage.
I am me.
Nightmare - Season Final: "I SET THEM FREE"
"Everybody thinks they wants freedom, but what they really want is order"
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Thx to @nizz.aep for the CRT stuff
21.04.2025 - bipolar
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Late night thoughts :
Am I disturbing?
Did I cross the line?
Am I too much ?
I will never know.
Am I talking to you the right way ?
Do you answer me out of pure empathy ?
Or it is pity ?
I wanna talk to you.
But maybe you don't.
Is it fear of abandonment ?
Or is it because I don't want to fail you ?
Probably both.
I wish I could be perfect in your eyes.
But I am probably not.
Who am I ?
I am my own burden.
I am my own cage.
I am me.
01.04.2025 - Derelict
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Late night thoughts :
Insanity takes it all.
Who am I ?
The kid in me died.
Everything start to be confusing.
Reality is awful.
Wich reality ?
Am i visible ?
That is insanity.
It takes everything from your soul.
The kid inside of me died .
Everything died,
Nothing left,
But just a wandering soul,
Trying to find a meaning in the word life.
Am i relevant ?
I am not.
Who am I ?
I am my own burden,
I am my own cage,
I am me
22.03.2025 - Thousands Summer Twilight
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ib: yuuki.aee
Late night thoughts :
When death comes to you,
What would you do ?
Death is an instant that lasts forever.
But what if Im dead from the inside ?
Will It also last forever?
Who am I?
I am my own burden.
I am my own cage.
I am me.
13.03.2025 - Watching the stars
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ib: yuuki.aee
Late night thoughts (inspired today (yeah that's probably a bit too much to read, srry) ) :
I am here.
But im the only one noticing it.
Who am I?
I am the shadow of the sun.
I am at the back of the class.
When you look at me,
The only thing you see,
Is the room behind.
We are a drop of water in an ocean.
We are a grain of sand in the desert.
What is that called ?
Yeah, solitude.
Everything start to be dark around you.
Your thought are louder than any sound.
Do they understand me?
Do they hear me ?
Do they see me ?
Am I relevant ?
This a void, a dark void.
You can be surrounded by thousands of people, this feeling will remain the same.
No one talks to you.
No one knows how you feel.
No one takes the time to know what your all about.
Your just the gloomy guy in back.
At the end, the only thing you can blame, is yourself.
Why am I like that ?
Am I legitimate to feel hurt ?
Do I have the right to complain about it?
Probably no.
Who am I ?
I am my own burden.
I am my own cage.
I am me.
05.03.2025 - Voices
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Late night thoughts (kind of poetic if u ask me): Love is the extension of hate. Human protect what they love by hate. Love is like a drug. When you tasted once you can't stop. You can't get enough. I tasted once. And it disappeared as quick as it came.
Then that feeling start to become a void.
It is a void that you can't fill.
You start to worship those who got it.
It is eating you alive.
It is a void that you can feel. You start to doubt of yourself. Is it meant for everyone ? Maybe not. Love is the extension of hate. Who am I ? I am my own burden. I am my own cage. I am me.
03.03.2025 - Memories
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Late night thoughts (kind of poetic if u ask me):
It is a sickness.
It is in my head.
And it never leaves.
A little voices.
It come and goes.
Who is it ?
No one knows.
It prevents you from mooving.
It tells you to disappear.
It tells you to die.
Never goes away, never leaving.
Always lurking.
I am my own burden
I am my own cage.
I am me.
On the last edit i forgot to change we are in 2025 lmao
