immortalizing my 3 years of sobriety to the #grid. i had such a massive problem with drinking almost immediately when i first started at age 15. it got rid of my anxiety, made me feel normal, and drinking on the job in our wonderful line of work of being musicians is often celebrated, so i did that as much as i possibly could. playing a show without a few beverages prior would send me into a panic, my work and alcohol became one, which then eventually took over my entire life. i’m posting because when i was at my lowest for years, trying to find an answer of why i can’t just have a few drinks like everybody else - seeing posts like this, made it seem like this could be possible. after attemping #dryjanuary, switching types of liquor, and every way i could convince myself i was “moderating”, i was at my absolute lowest and i reached out for help. i wouldn’t trade my sobriety for anything. i hope if you’re struggling you can find it within you to reach out, it gets better on the other side. if u read this far i appreciate u and the memes will be back tomorrow
