This came to me today as I was sitting here reflecting on how nothing ever goes as planned cuz I know nothing 🤷🏻♀️ but God knows something 🤔 he’s got a plan … 🗺️ constantly taking mine out of my hands !! 😫 and so I find myself having to surrender 🙇🏻♀️ over & over & over again to Creation 🌀 vs my wee wittle bwain 🧠 & trust in the magic ✨ that exists in the unfolding … when I l e t g o 🕊️ of my grasp on what I think should be
None of these moments were part of “the plan”
Even though I was told all of my life that I needed to plan every little thing so that nothing could possibly go wrong
Things would go wrong anyway 🙃
So I gave up on planning
& began to approach every day with a sense of discovery
Instead of overlaying each moment with fear and worry
Soon enough, every unfolding moment presented itself with gifts
Small yet precious, simple yet significant
I realized that life is made up of all of these moments
So I threw away my notions of “bigger” & “better”
And just began to live, with my heart as my guide
And I trusted, and I thanked, and I drank it all in
With the utmost faith and knowing
That the Creator wanted this for me, and the same for everyone else
So lean into your heart
Even if it doesn’t make sense to anyone else
& you will be supported
& guided
& nourished so deeply along the way.
Learning so much from him
The closest thing I got to Source
Things I’ve been wanting to do for so long
he’s been forcing me to do:
- slow down
- rest more
- wake up with the sunrise
Hasn’t been easy
…hardest 2 months of my life actually
but he’s starting to smile at me when I wake up from him kicking his lil feet into my tummy at 5 in the morning
And that alone has made it all worth it.
My grandma called me today and asked why I haven’t posted any pics of my boy yet… so here he is, for the grams.
This is Ojas Thiện Kelly 💫
arrival: 03/09/2026 at 1:46 am
Ojas: Vitality
Thiện: Goodness
Kelly: Warrior
I will be sharing my birth story in the next post… 🩵
Unexpectedly expecting… 👶🏻💙
This lil guy was in my tummy for 4 months and I didn’t even know it! 😅
It’s been a wild past couple weeks to say the least but feelin so blessed. Excited to embark on this journey with you @jel_lee_ 😚♥️🤪
Swipe to see my parent’s reactions. They are so cute and hilarious.
Last two pics are first pics as ma and pa taken by our beloved Perry 🫶🏼
That’s all for now. LOVE Y’ALL
N e r v o u s S y s t e m R e g u l a t i o n 🧘🏻♀️
I was recently diagnosed with adrenal-related PCOS due to chronic stress… which has significantly affected my cycle—I’ve gotten my period just once this year 🙃
Sometimes I wake up with my heart racing for no reason. Sometimes I wake up after a full night’s rest feeling like I was hit by a train. My energy levels fluctuate on the daily but for the most part I have been feeling pretty fatigued. For years I’ve dealt with chronic stress and high functioning anxiety but it seems as though it all really caught up to me this year.
Something that’s been saving me is 30 min to an hour of yin yoga before I do anything else in the morning. Childs pose, rock pose, puppy pose are especially super regulating and grounding for me… when I’m in them I want to be in them forever. 🪨
Along with yin yoga, gentle walks in nature 🌿 and puttin my feet in grass have been just as supportive. Breathin deep. Journaling. Singing. Warm beverages. Staring off into the distance. Just wanted to share what’s really helped me regulate as I’m sure we’re all going through and recovering from some trying times this year 😅
As tough as it has been, I’m grateful to have the spaciousness in my life right now to be able to safely confront many things I’ve kind of brushed aside or didn’t have the space to really process/deal with for years (trauma, suppressed emotions, ignoring my body) it’s all been coming to the surface in order to be felt and released. It’s been fkin hard. But I feel that there were things I could no longer carry with me as I evolve into the next lvl of my becoming. 🌱
Be gentle with yourself. It’s been a lot. But you are healing 🫂 & preparing for your next version.
Love u ♥️
