alice💜💕✨

first post as a blonde !! (im loving my new blonde life) may stays being absolutely insanely busy!! upcoming alice seasoned gig type situations . 5/16 kidBULLY at cold spring hollow on a rippin bill, we have not practiced since last time so mysteries and good times will ensue for all !! 5/17 sexisinsanity at lost bag with mfin DECIDE TODAY holy wow i have waited like a decade for this roll tf up !! 5/22 mulching at fifth column in allston w some heaters, come through and hear me nostalgia trip smoking cigs going “back in my day” between rock music sets 5/27 sexisinsanity in conway ma in a neat lil backyard moment, will be a fun noisy time !! 5/29 dome plays an insane bill at home sweet home machines goddamn I am super looking forward to this one so many dome gigs have fallen through this year and i am ready to fuccin shred w my dearest bbs !!!!!!!!!!!! also using this opportunity to post about me and omari playin NICE in july !! will be so fun to hear us big and loud i am ready to rawk . gig photo by @40ozs_of_rock_n_roll . this is the busiest ive been in about a decade and i gotta say im quite proud of how im doing and able to show up and get everything done. work has been absolutely cooked and so many gigs and other obligations but im more equipped than ever to take it on and bitch shes doing it!! eternally grateful for my friends, chandler, bandmates, acquaintances, and miscellaneous cheerleaders i am so lucky to have in my life havent felt it in a long time but ALWAYS LOUDER FOREVER for real maybe some time ill figure out when to release all this backlogged music that is just sitting around at this point . big love from alice 💜💕✨💕💜💕✨💕💜

ok business first this friday in new bedford, muchling rides again! . after the gig on my bday lulu sent me this message and it hit me like a ton of bricks. i think back to even a year ago and i would not have imagined things are like they are now, let alone four. i was tempted by nostalgia to see what i was posting on this damned website around then and not only was i in fact hardly able to sleep and playing through DS1-3, but the day before my birthday i took my homemade trans pride flag off my jacket. i felt so ashamed, afraid, and infinitely far away from life feeling like i knew how to live it. trapped and cornered and unable to escape the prison id help construct for myself, not seeing a door in a windowless suffocating room. reread what i wrote on my birthday last year and am happy to report that i did so much of what i set out to do. its been a year of love, hardship, joy amongst pain, euphoria, reflection, and most importantly growth. i never thought i would want to celebrate myself like i did this year. i never thought i could be proud enough of how far ive come do deserve such indulgences. such kindness. the thing that has really trapped me for so long is the need to make sense to people, feeling like i had to behave in a way that was digestible and nonthreatening even to the most wretched individual that would hate my ass anyways. i wrote last year about not wanting to carry that burden anymore and im happy to report that in many ways i have freed myself of this previously unshakable need. i think about the woman i was for so many years and its hard to not feel sad for her, but i try to remember her strength even in dark times. if only she could see how far shed go to live life as she wanted. how much she would want to be in the world and with the people in it. how proud she would become. how beautiful she would feel. how loved she was/is/and would be. i am endlessly grateful for the people that have supported me, cared for me in dark times, laughed me in happy ones, and shown me love and grace throughout. this was the best birthday i ever had and i cant wait for more. . photos by @bbsnapsphotography . big love from alice💕✨

no gigs this week for the recuperation zone but starting on my bday weve got a couple heaters in a row !! . 4/16 mulching at news on an absolutely stacked bill holy shit what a friggin gift that will be !!! so so so excited 4/17 sexisinsanity at pyxis on an industrial ass bill come shake ass or else!! it will be a heaterrrrrrr 4/19 gluskab at as220 on a good ol fashioned hardcore type bill with shredders only !! i play bass now come thru and see me turn to dust under the weight of a t40 4/20 still hoping something will pan out so stay tuned on that . right now i am in the throes of readjusting to actually living life like i want to. it feels amazing. in celebration here are some photos from the last few months (except the dome one but i was thinkin of it the other day) of me and some people i hold dear and am so lucky to have in my life ^<_^ . gig and the ladies pic by the amazing @bbsnapsphotography (srsly one of my new fave gig photos of forever) dome cuteness by @jj_gonson_photo . i am full of love and a desire to be more and do better and it is the best ive felt in so many ways maybe ever . big love to all 💕✨💕

huge news for loud sound enjoyers !! next week of gigs i am sleepy and my body hurts but the gig calls my name !! . TODAY! mulching in worcester at the firehouse on a rippin bill let’s get itttttt 3/31 sexisinsanity at as220 for a tdov fundraiser, insane ass bill(!) so come support good stuff were gonna be so fuccin visible 4/4 dome mulch double header at CCC for a top surgery benefit, im more biased but the bill is sick ;) . gig 📸: @photorobbins . being in a zillion bands again feels so good i love it i love music and my friends and my incredible amazing supportive partner and wow im so lucky im proud that im makin so many lil moves to make life look more like i want and that im more able to be myself doin it ^<_^ wouldn’t be able to do it without the insane support network i have, so all i can say is its always worth it to check in on your pals when you can cause goddamn to me it has meant the world in the face of mounting horror and collapse we persist !! . big love from alice 🥰💕✨

this sunday!! 3/29!! mulching!! worcester!! rippin gig!! be there!! . not much to report other than i am doing pretty dang good in the ol noggin and meat domains, am busy and employed and feeling gorgeous about it i love my friends and music and my partner and holy wow in the face of insanity i am absolutely so lucky . 📸: 3) @returntothepit , 7) heavily cropped @bbsnapsphotography will have more to say another time but for now alice loves u mwah ^<_^🥰💕✨💕✨

@o.shoots brought the trigger to try out for this weekend and boy howdy it was a blast heres a lil preview 😈🗡✨✨✨ come see me rip off all my favorite drummers

tho we cannot rawk today there is a whole horizon of gigs!! . 3/7 mulching and CYBERBULLYx:mousekid: sound explosion plays fifth column 3/10 dome plays a heater ass gig at lost bag . i did not feel like finding the info for the other gigs this month but trust there is more 🥰 . 📸 1,4: @returntothepit . wowie things sure feel grim and horrible but ill be damned if i dont keep my lil “act together” ball up the hill cause damnit i didnt figure all this shit out to roll over and hide again . music to come, finishing a track for a comp today and will be doin more as consequence felt good to open ableton . slowly trying to get plans for a big show later in the year together, if you’d be interested in playing some of my material from different projects hit me up . had a lovely week in philly/nj and am thankful for friendship and the care I am so lucky to receive from said friends . ok i guess thats all for now thank you big love from alice 💕✨💕

gigigigigigigigigigsssssssss 1/31 saturday gluskab plays a huge rippin anti ice function at holiday inn !! 2/18 dome plays NH w sweeties chainlacing and record releasing agenbite misery !! 2/19 dome plays as220 w bbs oldest sea and big sounders wrekmeister harmonies !! 2/28 dome plays as220 again w heater lineup told not to worry, trophy hunt, stress spells and 10th park !! 3/10 dome plays lost bag w the elusive playful bunch, russian tsarlag, baby muffler and inner cross !! more gigs to come but this is what the next bit is looking like ~^<_^~ . YA GIRL IS EMPLOYED AS OF NEXT WEEK YAY been doing a lot of reflecting on the last 6 years since i last had a steady gig. thinking about where i was at then and where im at now is insane. ive been so fortunate to be able to take that time to get my shit together and im letting myself be proud of the work ive done on myself. and i even feel pretty nice in my skin these days 🥰 thanks to those who have stuck around and showed me love and support, it means more than you could ever know . stay tuned for more alice related updates soon love u big 😘💕✨

i mainly wrote this as a reminder to myself mostly a platitude but idk wanted to work through some thoughts you have the ability to stand for what you believe, especially in the face of a state that wishes only for the demise of those it deems undesireable there is always more to do look out for the world around you in the ways you can . i know that you feel afraid you know i feel just the same when the moment comes and terror fills our eyes will we choke on tears evoked from cryin or will we speak with spit and teeth no lyin time has shown well hold our own in tryin times so stoke the flame of pain and rage for fightin cause we know its always been this way countless horrors committed by the state we cant close our eyes and let this slip away so stand erect demand respect yr not cryin wolf speak the truth and know that you aint lyin time has shown youre not alone in tryin times so stoke the flame of pain and rage for fightin i wont say things will be ok i wont claim i know what to say or do or anything but now the moments come so this ill say to you theres always something more that you can do

this year was absolutely insane the difference between where i was at at the start of the year and now is a little unbelievable to me still have a lot of shit to work through but im able to allow myself to be the person i wanna be in the world more than ever had some of my happiest moments and scariest know now that when it comes time to bite a bullet i will still no solo music from me which im disappointed about but im so incredibly proud of my dome bbs and what were cookin up and what we put out there this year deepest compatriots in art i could ask for and am so thankful lots of ins and outs and i think i will keep expounding on that for personal conversation, but heres a list of some stuff that happened: •felt actually good in my body more often than ever •playin out more than i have since the end of the old band •got to do a tour again finally with new dear friends •joined some bands and actually go to shows again •wore almost all my fancy clothes •went on many fun adventures with chandler 🥰🥰🥰 •took care of multiple people after big surgeries and did a good job and let myself say that •played in a wild theater production with family and friends •continued to develop my titties and ass (thriving) •made so many lovely pals and reconnected with some old ones •scored a bunch of sick ass jewelry •started drawing again •slowly figured out what i actually want so many different parts of my life to look like (still some mystery there) •found that respecting myself and carrying myself with confidence and intent unfortunately does change the way the world at large treats me •loved myself despite it all plenty of other stuff too but that seems like a big enough list i am so very thankful for the people I get to have in my life and call my friends i wanna do you proud and i feel like im finally starting to big love from alice 💕✨ . photos 1 and 10 by @photorobbins photo 2 by @jj_gonson_photo

final functions before the end of the year a threefer next weekend . 12/13 dome plays VINTERFESTT at pyxis, second slide schedule of pure heat for this cold snap we are experiencing 12/14 gluskab at news w another heater ass bill, drivel from dc, intensive care unit and search warrant 12/15 dome rides one more time in maine with the sweet bbs collapsed skull, drivel (so stoked to see this shit twice), zinc and half step . photo by @allothetic.coolpix . gig at new alliance was a real highlight thanks gang ill probably ramble about it again at some point soon but I was not expecting the back half of the year to be so packed and im so grateful to be able to play out so much both solo and with my dear pals . feelin pretty alright about the flesh prison these days thats fun so heres some photos . next time you hear from will will likely be a big sappy excursion reflecting on the year if you want a sneak peak come to the gig and say hey 💕 . big love from alice keep doin that freak shit and not lettin the weight crush your spirit 💜✨💜

alright these are lookin like the last domenings of the year so come thru to get yr piece walloped !! . dec 5 w/ ko queen and a gallery moment at new alliance in somerville for free dollars!! dec 13 VINTERFESTT mode with an absolute heater of a lineup, a few more acts tba at pyxis!! dec 15 w/ dear sweeties and shredders collapsed skull and a fire rest of the bill in biddeford maine!! . only other thing on the docket is gluskab shreddin dec 14 at news but no flyer yet so stay tuned!! . photo by @redeyedphoto from me subbin in with the body void bbs ^<_^ . i doubt i will achieve this but i really really want to get a record out before the end of the year so im gonna go hide and try to get one of the million things in the verge of completion done . seriously been great doin the damn thing more now i have to remember how to be alone with myself again one step at a time !!! . big love from alice 😘💕✨