🔥The Phoenix (V14/8B+)🔥
Magical moment in the park summiting this
@orourker test piece in team style with
@benn_wheeler . Though not the hardest, this is by far the most technical boulder I’ve ever climbed. Taking 13 days over the last 4 seasons, climbing The Phoenix posed a challenge more intense than any boulder has presented thus far, and honestly, for a time it broke me.
Last winter, I was infatuated with the idea of climbing V14, and felt entitled to after the work I’d put in. I felt failure in many facets of my life, and that somehow, climbing V14 was the only way to prove myself. In reality, I simply wasn’t ready. Walking away from The Phoenix that season felt like walking away from a dream. I was angry, hard to be around, and treated those around me unfairly, including myself. This was a low point in my life, and for a time I considered quitting climbing.
To send The Phoenix, I’ve had to grow as a climber and a human, redefining my relationship with the sport while learning to love myself regardless of a ticklist, career achievements, and external validation from others. So often, climbing media glorifies rage and self loathing as part of the projecting process, but in reality they cause more harm than good. I hope this can serve as a reminder to others to put their own wellbeing before climbing accomplishments, regardless of perceived urgency.
Though my experience on The Phoenix was tumultuous, I wouldn’t trade it for anything. This accomplishment is symbolic of overcoming personal turmoil, and I’ll be forever grateful for the opportunity I’ve been granted to test myself against this boulder which served as a vessel to cultivate and observe personal growth for the past couple years. I’m in a better spot now, and I believe composing myself to return to and complete The Phoenix this season is indicative of that progress. I’m so thankful for the days I spent under this one with many good friends, especially
@benn_wheeler @benblackmore01 and
@craftedsam who were especially involved in the process.
As a bonus, this happened to be my 100th V10+ boulder. Here’s to many more!
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@bozovicy