Laurel diaries 📖 everything is changing on the inside of me so that now everything is changing on the outside too. Like a caterpillar transforming into a butterfly. I have officially come out of hiding, entranced again with the world and everything she has to offer. I want to dance in gardens and drink crèment every night and even when my head hurts I don’t care because I’m full of joyfulness & crèment is always worth it. In my dreams I can speak fluent French & i am always moving into bigger and bigger houses ? I have been analysing my dreams with Carl Yungs dream theories & it seems that even in my dreams I am transforming or so says carl. I am interested in everything very old all of a sudden & so I bought a red Persian rug just because. Every time I see an aeroplane I am filled with butterfly wings in my tummy because I want to fly !!!!!! To every far off land. I want to explore I want to travel I am about to burst. This song by Laura marling is the reason I bought a guitar and started playing shows in Southampton and Portsmouth at 13
Self portrait putting the finishing touches on my 3rd album 🤍 after producing and mixing DOGVIOLET I said I would never produce another album (hysterical laughing in my head rn) it was so many lonely hours of refining and listening of my own voice on repeat. Obviously I forgot the depth of that insanity because after a 7 year production hiatus i am producing again & going crazy once more. I am so crazy I feel like exploding every single day? Which seems not very good?? But then I watch interviews of yung lean and everything he went through with his mental health and then im like yeah ok it makes sense we artists are just completely unhinged. Actually im not sure what makes sense anymore but maybe that’s also ok to not make any sense like this caption which probably also makes no sense 🙃 can you tell i spend the majority of my days alone writing music hehe. Anyway i did actually finish the album a month or so ago and I’ve been in a sort of delay/hell as we’re pulling together all the other necessary things - I am not a patient woman - so here I am tearing up the album and making it better… maybe? I might be making it worse it’s hard to know but I just added this new song on the 2nd side. Love uuuu
Fire Breather MV - 2014 🥀 yesterdays post lit my HEART on fire. I can’t believe how many of you are still so invested in this era from 12 years ago. Your comments about fire breather reminded of the music video which I found on an old hard drive!!! Penelope Douglas also used this song in her book corrupt which I’m gonna read next. I also found out from yesterdays post that some of my other songs are involved in some other books and tv shows and films and I am literally so excited and confused because I feel like there is a whole world out there that my music has almost been existing in without me, which really makes me feel so in love with this art because they are these little vessels that travel far and wide and once you make them and you put them out they’re really not even yours anymore - they belong to the world now! I am actually obsessed with this trailer park video also and want to make another one I don’t remember the directors name and need to track him down
When you find out you’re part of a niche dark romantic booktok lore on a casual Wednesday ….. I’ve been hiding away finishing my 3rd album & praying to the universe asking for guidance to find what’s true & meant for me artistically. A while ago I started having dreams about one of my first songs blue blood, always waking with a strong feeling that I needed to return to this era and sound. Shortly after these dreams I notice I was being tagged in TikTok videos of a book called credence, at first i don’t really understand what is happening and think it’s spam but then more and more videos appear and I start paying attention… i dig a bit deeper, buy the book myself (which btw is the spiciest thing I have ever read in my life oh my) and find that the little song I wrote at 18 has found its own little universe all these years later and is mentioned in the book!!!! Finding the book really lit something in me and made me totally fall in love with my music all over again. When I released this music at 18 it changed my life and swept me up in a whirlwind of major labels and modelling agencies, events, radio, touring the whole thing. It was completely wonderful but I was also soooo young. In the end I really rebelled against the system I was in, making my album DOGVIOLET felt like I was stripping every last bit of pop from me in some attempt to gain back control over my artistry and my life. But all these years later finding my song in this book has been one of the most beautiful things. My new album (which I’m putting the finishing touches on) is really inspired by this blue blood world. I guess the universe really did answer my prayers and send me in the right direction! Thank you @penelope.douglas for this gift ♥️
Happy birthday my beautiful beautiful husband @elliottarndt I love you so much to the moon & back, forever ever & always !!! We recreated our engagement pic with @yanayatsuk in Marseille after our wedding in the summer. I miss France & summer nights eating cheese & drinking red wine 🍷 🧀 💘
Living a romantic life of taking absolutely no pictures 🥀 here are the only 4 on my camera roll from the last 3 weeks. I’m close to coming up for air from this album but it feels like it’s going on forever like British afternoon tea 🫖 🫠
