Market Monday
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I designed and hand painted this dress last winter.
I am hoping to create and have a collection of different designs and pieces soon, thought I would share.
Thank you for the photos and support friend @chulbauer@chulbauer.photo ##fashionisart ##nooilgarchyinart #imperfections
Pictured: Sonia casually showing me around the city, hyping me up, and making normal plans.
Not Pictured: The chaos gremlin inside me that comes out when I wander off alone, drink a lot of caffeine, and set myself loose on strangers.
Having your car towed in Quebec is insanely pleasant. Accidentally doing a dumb thing doesn’t ruin your day, or potentially your life if you haven’t any money. They put a reasonable ticket in your door, and park it somewhere safe for you to pick up at your own leisure. No boot. No people to talk to. No impound lots with immediate exchanges of money. Three strangers on the street pointed me towards better help, even though I don’t speak a lick of French, and even the website was easy enough to navigate despite lacking English translations. I don’t recommend getting your car towed, but I do recommend going to Quebec just for shits and giggles. Fucking off to Canada just might temporarily ease the despair of your own personal dumpster fire. Poutine was eaten, Bonhamme was celebrated, and very good times were had.
2024 was full of goodbyes. Some were a choice. Some accidental. Some necessary. A few permanent and heartbreaking. Mistakes were made. Many steps to the left while trying to move forward. I missed a funeral for a wedding, and a wedding for a funeral. More than anything 2024 was a year filled with gratitude for the capacity of love that exists inside the humans in my life. New and old. Blood or not. Some in passing while some have stayed. From Montana to Maine, Hawaii to Mexico, and beyond, I have won the lottery in people. I am often lost both geographically, and mentally, but I can never say I am not loved. Cheers to the hope for more laughter, more trips, less back pain, and more spam in 2025.
Arguably the best mistake I ever made was keeping Odin. My first dog. Maybe my only, but always my favorite. Somehow the softest thing in the world.
It’s absolutely wild how dogs become such a big part of our lives. How a creature that doesn’t speak our language can teach us so many human things. They never live long enough. ❤️🐾
A plate of salt looks identical to a plate of rice if the lighting is dim enough. Real sad thing to put in your mouth. Real hilarious if it was your friend.
I’m so fortunate for the people in my life who take me in stride, and let me join in on their adventures all over the place. Even if I have to drag a leg up the tiny mountain after pretending to climb a tree, or be horizontal on the fancy vacation. Maybe it’s a homemade brunch on a sacred Sunday, where none of that matters. All we can hear is the sizzling bacon, and the giggling of a two year old while she runs naked outside in the sun.
I’m so far from who I thought I might be, or become in my life, but I’m always trying to figure out how to grow apart from my injuries. How to pivot my ambitions even when I’ve done it poorly. How to fix my mood. Sometimes it looks like solace in silence. Other times it has looked like serious lunches after therapy, or uprooting everything, and drinking too much. Maybe it looks like the wrong kind of love for myself, but love is love is love. Always it has been too costly, but I have not let fear stop me from trying something new, or walking away without beating that horse to death. I wish I could say the same for always finishing things, but we live and we learn and we ADHD.
Even the infrared camera thinks I’m missing pieces in my center. I’m not Humpty Dumpty, though. I’m still standing. So, light ‘em if you got ‘em. Stand up for people. Stand up for yourself. We’re all just racing death even when we’re trying to be the tortoise.
My 4:30am thoughts while I wait for an oil change in Bangor, ME after a 2:30am car ride. This might sound sarcastic, but it’s not. I really do love my dumb little life, and the amazing people that choose to be a part of it. Alright. Goodnight. Good morning. Whatever.
