111 days ago on May 30, 2025 at 2:11pm, my Angel left her body. She was 11.
Before you read on, may I please request that you not feel sorry for my loss?
I mean at moments I too feel immensely sorry for my loss but that’s not the point 😂
If you’d like to leave a comment, I’d be so grateful if you could simply leave a ❤️
And if you’ve ever had the privilege of meeting her - whether through a photo, a video, or in real life - and that moment brought you joy, I’d love it if you could share that with me. 🙏🏼🌈
I will cherish her forever and I will try not to be sorry for my losing her.
Instead I want to celebrate every moment of my life right now because she opened my heart and soul to embrace everything with love and presence.
It was a rare form of aggressive stomach cancer that none of her doctors had seen before.
Her last lessons for me was the hardest to get through and comprehend.
But she helped me every single step of the way, through her pain she showed me the beauty of being present and being grateful.
It was indeed a privilege to have been there to care for her through her illness.
To be her mother here on earth has been the ultimate gift and privilege.
She has been my biggest teacher and my greatest joy.
Now she is the brightest Star in my sky ✨
Thank you for choosing me.
For choosing us.
Forever and ever our Angel ❤️
Mommy loves you.
AHHHHHH BESNYE LAGU NIIIIII
Thank you @thedouglaslim for featuring me in this crazy fun project for the ages.
It’s been way too long.
And thank you for reminding me of Ng Chelsia 😂
How the years have flown by 🥲
Watch the full video on Douglas punya YouTube and @thedouglaslim
Link in bio!
Pertama kali berdialog dalam dialek Kelantan untuk film Pagari Bulan.
Terima Kasih guru bahasa @hushairihusain yang sudi meluangkan masa last minute untuk tolong saya 🙏🏼🌈
Terima Kasih @aloyparadoks for the introduction 🙏🏼🌈
Terima Kasih @rajamukhriz@sharifahshahora@elevenfieldcreative@ctjasmina for this golden opportunity 🙏🏼🌈
Malam ini, Selasa 26 Ogos, jam 9 malam di @tv2_rtm
Saksikan tayangan eksklusif pertama filem ‘Pagari Bulan’ di kaca televisyen.
Idea asal: Ellyna Ahmad
Skrip: Siti Jasmina Ibrahim
Arahan: Raja Mukhriz
Terbitan: @elevenfieldcreative
Filem ini diinspirasikan daripada kisah benar tentang comfort women di Tanah Melayu.
I love how a photograph can speak without words.
Take us places without moving spaces.
Time travel is real.
In photographs.
In music.
In the memories we keep.
There’s always a song that will get you back on track when the road seems a little less certain.
This one is definitely one of them :)
What’s yours?
Comment below, would love to make a playlist! 🙏🏼🌈
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This was fun.
Dear Universe,
More of this please 🙏🏼🌈
🍩: @r.f.b
🤡: @irenataib
🎥: @janetleemusic
🎵: @alanis
Anjua? Horseh bo?
That’s Penang Hokkien for, “So how? All is good?”
Horseh liao la!!! = Inikali Lahhhh!
Chelsia Horseh liao la 🤩 = Chelsia has made it ✨
It’s a greeting, it’s an exclamation, it’s a celebration🧧🐴
In the Spirit of our Fiery Friend The Horse,
I wish that you receive the right tools and paths to make all your hopes and dreams come true this year.
I wish for your days to be all good days.
I wish that you INIKALILAH HENG ONG HUAT 🍊
I wish you this year confirm HORSEH LIAO! 🍊🧧
* 📸 : @eunicetoonice 📍 : @nui.kopi
*Final day to purchase #FORWARDWITHFIRE Limited Artist Edition T-Shirt is on Chap Goh Meh, March 3, 2026*
Link to purchase in bio ✨
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#cnytshirt
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Chinese New Year is here again. Sorry tak sempat buat lagu baru this year. So just layan balik lah. Ha ha. #douglaslim #lawakbodoh #cny #ohmakidahcny #lagucny
Forward with Fire - Limited Artist Edition T-Shirt
2026 Year Of The Fire Horse 🔥 For me, it feels like momentum. The kind I’ve been waiting for 💪🏼
This vision came to me in a daydream and was brought to life with a 0.5 MUJI gel ballpoint on a sketchbook I received as a Secret Santa gift ✌🏼
It took a while to get me here, but I’m grateful to finally share this fiery friend with all of you ✨
Created for Lunar New Year 2026, this artwork is released in a fixed run and will not be reproduced.
I hope our friend The Fire Horse brings you and your loved ones everything you need for the year ahead —
a year that’s HENG, ONG & HUAT 🧧🔥🐎🍊 With Love, Chelsia
*Available in adult and kids sizes ✨
👉🏼 ChelsiaNg.com to purchase. Link in bio ;)
Promo Code for RM8 off each purchase : HENGONGHUAT
#ForwardWithFire
#FireHorse2026
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#CNY2026
I didn’t get much accomplished this year. Everything was put on hold.
I just didn’t have it in me to get things done. Promotion for my album put on hold.
Declined offers for roles. Cancelled plans. Bought tickets to friends’ shows I never got to see.
Because I chose to stay home with her.
And I’m so glad I did.
I’m glad I didn’t get much done this year.
But I got to spend her final days with her.
Never abandoning her side when she needed me the most.
For that, I am grateful beyond words.
Have always wanted to write a song for/about Lara but instead this one came out.
A song written inspired by a little kitten I picked up from Pudu with a severe abdominal hernia.
A song with many questions for her about the great beyond.
“What is it like on the other side?”
You may listen to the full song (different performance) on my YouTube channel with link in bio 🙏🏼
I didn’t get much accomplished this year.
But I did learn how to play the guitar and wrote my first song on the guitar this year.
So, thank you 2025. Thank you for levelling me up in more ways than one.
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If you’ve been following us, you’ll remember we rescued a little orange kitten in September and raised funds for her surgery. She’s probably the only cat in Klang Valley with a mini trust fund now.
A little update on Moon’s condition (sorry for the delay):
We took her to see her doctor and surgeon as soon as we raised enough funds. After explaining the risks (each stage has about a 50% chance of survival), the doc asked us to go home and think hard about whether to go ahead with surgery or let her live a happy OKU life. Something they didn’t ask us to do when we were first told about her need for the surgery. We always thought that was the only option. Doc did mention that she looked stronger and more spirited than when doc first saw her in September.
Since then, Moon has had four episodes of what would look like a normal furball episode but a bit more alarming given her condition.
We took her for another check-up with a different doctor last week and have decided to go ahead with the surgery in January.
What I learnt from grief this year
That it changes you.
That great grief does not exist without great love.
Letting go does not mean forgetting.
That Buddha was right all along — it is the attachment that makes letting go so hard.
Duhh 🙄
That great love and great attachment are mutually exclusive.
That grief is not the enemy, but a friend who is misunderstood.
That
“Sending love”
“I’m here if you need me”
is gentler than asking questions
we don’t yet have the strength to answer.
Questions like
“what happened?”
“How are you?”
That great happiness and great sadness can coexist.
In the very same moment, in the very same breath, in the very same thought.
That even though mine is not the same as yours, it has the same face and the same name.
That time is but a concept made by man’s feeble understanding of the Universe.
That life does go on,
and they live on
in you, in me, in us
in the breeze
The Force ✨
That you don’t have to carry it.
Sit with it.
Play a song with it.
Dance with it 💃
Make art with it.
I step into the new year lighter, not because the grief is smaller, but because my heart has now learnt to hold it differently ❤️
To my loved ones who have rejoined The Force, I will forever carry you in my heart.
Thank you for your Love ❤️
