claire tan

yall told me to make it dramatic…. heres my hair and… some of the 5 years of memories it held. happy new year yall, 100% not thinking, just doing… 🎵: frank ocean - white ferrari #chop #goodbye2025

hair that long doesn’t just hold memories, it holds weight of a past self that i’d been trying so hard to stay true to. but maybe, certain values don’t resonate anymore and… maybe holding on to those parts had just been preventing us from seeing beyond. i now know that i’m meant for more, but… i also know that my old self would never have understood that. and for that… i love her, but she isn’t the person i wanna be anymore. i will continue hold her close in the memories that i have of her, and will keep on doing her proud as i continue to grow. i know that i’ll be back to meet her again but for now, i’m gonna say goodbye, to that part of me that only knew how to neglect myself. i guess it’s time to be better. see yall in the next one :) #pastlives #identity

oh to be privileged to self doubt over such trivial things. but… isn’t this the experience of every creative? or… anyone who takes the path less travelled..? #reflections #identity

the mask you create consumes you eventually. 01: the mask things i didnt know how to say explicitly #shortfilm #clay #mask #creative #identity

hi guys, notes on why i disappeared for a while… this semester went crazy and it took me a good few weeks of hibernation to regain my ability to speak. i crashed out because i was struggling to express myself creatively, not just in my schoolwork and work outside of it, but also in this cfolios thing. i found myself going back to making lighthearted content here because people liked it, editing my original ideas in school because it didnt fit the brief. somewhere along the way i just got caught up in that self-doubt, which dulled my true capabilities. i’ve been hiding a lot of things with laughter, in general, it’s a coping mechanism that i’ve made myself live with. and if cfolios was supposed to represent my true self, lighthearted laughter wasn’t it. everytime i had something important to say, i’d laugh and joke about it because… i didn’t think that people would resonate with me. and after a while creating felt tiring, because it didn’t feel like me. sometimes the mask that we hide behind is most detrimental to our own wellbeing, and i guess it took a good 22 years for me to realise that. i didn’t realise that i’d been people pleasing with my self-deprecating humour, and i didn’t know what damage those years of accumulated hiding could do to me until i’d burnt out completely. nonetheless years of self deprecation is hard to unlearn, so itll take me some time to get this account stable. i’ll still be documenting the rest of the semester in the trying not to crashout series, but there’s definitely gna be more diverse types of content on this page bc im still finding out what works best for me. i’m not the same person i was at the start of this semester, and i think it’s taught me to stop waiting for external validation to do things. it’s taught me stop chasing: the right people will find me when i do the things i need to do. there’s no need to me to perform, unless i feel like it. stay if you’d like to grow with me…. hope to see you in the next one! byee #creative #performance #identity

little trip to @off_hours.sg last night! 📍 the centrepoint orchard, 🕰️ until tonight (29 march), 7pm. hurry over! let’s support artists whenever we can. #ocart #animation #comics #drawing #exhibition

3D PART 1 | making boxes and teeth in rhino part of my studio assignment where we had to make a 3d printed object from something we wanted to throw away, so my design inspo was a random paper box for mouth tape. little experience n big ideas... love being ambitious sometimes. #3dprinting #rhino #design #student

is burnout a first world problem? #hustle #productivity #lifestyle #why #identity

sometimes alone time is best time…🤝🕊️ follow along if you feel the same. #peaceout #atown #crashout #identity

WEEK 5 | on spaces and how we might be influenced by them. this isn’t just about physical spaces… sometimes the environments that we’re in tend to be restrictive in some way, and it’s okay to carve your own way out of there. putting this out here because i think its just important that we remain aware of what our environments can do to us, so that we regain control of our ability to think for ourselves, and curate our own narratives. see yall in the next one! byee #creative #crashout #identity

i needed the basket to channel my inner aunty. #giant #supermarket #buy1itemsave10lives

WEEK 4 | on thoughts about being seen… been a while since i’ve posted one of these cos i’ve finally had time to understand it, so here we are! ithink i’ve been quite a coward for hiding my life behind a screen so… follow along to let me show you the more realistic side of me. see yall in the next one! byeee #seeingisbelieving #identity