A few of my favorites from Hyrox HTX
It feels like Iāve done nothing but repeat myself in the past few months about how happy I am to be here, but it just couldnāt be more true. Running has changed my life in the short few months since I started- I canāt imagine it any different now. Iām so giddy that this is my life and I get to capture such cool moments. Calling that work is the icing on the cake. I canāt wait for the rest of the year :)
Bryony Keys.
I truly donāt have a single photo of Bryony not smiling from the entire weekend. Out of all of the people I couldāve ended up crewing / shooting for in BPNās Last Man Standing Ultra Marathon, I feel extraordinarily lucky that it was with Bryony. Not just because she was the last female standing (!!!) out of 145 runners, after 38 hours & 155 miles (!!!!!), but because she is the most genuine, incredible human being outside of her talent in this sport. Mind you, she was asking me questions about myself, if I had eaten enough and if I needed anything in the midst of her ultraā and that gives you just a bit of insight to the person she is.
What a joy it is to know you; I canāt wait to see what adventure you take on next
āIn most cases, pain from running is predictable. You know how much you have to run for your body to warm up and fill up with adrenaline and stop aching. You know that at mile 20 you might hit a wall that youāll have to overcome. In running, being in pain is expected, even welcome because you know thereās a purpose -thereās a reward or sense of achievement waiting for you.
In grief, pain can hit out of nowhere. There are good days and there are really really bad days - and thereās no reason to it, no patterns, only pain and chaos. A silent scream in your head. After my husband Andrew died, I wanted to scream, but I couldnāt. I was partying and drinking way too much. I couldnāt force myself to eat. I was falling apart. Then I started running. I moved across the country and found a community of runners. I kept running more and more. With every run, the scream in my head kept fading. Now i can barely hear it. Itās still there, Iām still devastated and somehow broken. But I have a purpose - one foot in front of the other.ā
- Martyna Dearing
It is nearly impossible to reduce this past weekend into a mere instagram caption. What a privilege it was to document Martynas 167 mile run from Austin to Houston: 13 hour days, 3 hours of sleep and a concerning lack of nutritionāIād do it again in a heartbeat. It is humbling to be surrounded by such inspiring and authentic individuals.
I believe I will forever be searching for the words to describe how it feels to be given opportunities like this that allow me to call work my passion. To document genuine moments + emotions means everything to me and I never thought this could be real life; Iām forever grateful.
Brian threw some fits & told me to shoot what I thought best š¤
Thereās no better time to reflect than when youāre sitting on a plane, in my opinion. I love writing about my thoughts and experiences ā and sharing them for about three minutes before realizing Iāve willingly released my inner thoughts to the internet. Itās funny how we all live in our own heads.
Today is the first time Iām flying back to Nashville feeling like Iām leaving home instead of heading toward it. I kept saying I had ājust moved to Austinā this weekend, only to realize itās been nine months now; how lucky am I.
Reflecting on the last nine months, I think Iāve been quietly waiting for things not to work out. I try to keep an āeverything always works outā mindset, but also Iām human and honestly, what if it doesnāt? In a world where it seems like everyone else has it figured out (cue the highlight reels), thatās quite scary
Whether I thought it would or wouldnāt, month after month, things have worked out. I canāt help but feel like God has had His hand in that. I feel so lucky to have found community, especially through running. Which is funny, considering I couldnāt run a mile a few months ago and had no desire to. Thatās now opened a new door creatively into endurance sports, which I couldnāt be more stoked about.
Iāve said this countless times both on social media + to every person Iāve met since moving, but I really am so excited to be in Austin. Itās just icing on the cake that likeminded people believe in + trust my work to let (and encourage) me to have freedom in my craft.
A few incredibly human moments that I love.
At the beginning of this year, I found myself trying to fit into the neat little box in my head of what an āideal wedding photographerā was supposed to be. Composed frames, flawless lighting, perfectly posed couples. Deliver āthe galleryā every single timeā¦
I built mental checklists based on what I thought I had to capture to be considered successful or āgoodā at my job: flat lay, first look, bridal party, ceremony, family photos, couple portraits, cake cutting, dancing. Repeat.
āØAnd while all of those moments have their place, it was my mindset going into each wedding day that slowly became disheartening. Not because I was doing anything wrong ā but because Iāve grown. And because my relationship with weddings has changed. As Iāve reflected, the difference in my approach then compared to now is obvious, and acknowledging that shift feels both honest and necessary.
Iāve (finally) admitted that I love messy-I love, love. And love isnāt perfect or polished all of the time.āØThe out-of-focus, blurry, poorly lit photos have become my favorites ā they so often hold the most authentic emotion. For me, thatās the whole point.
Iām incredibly grateful for the weddings Iāve been trusted to document this past season. This work has challenged me in ways I couldāve never imagined, and Iām excited to continue growing alongside people who value presence over poses, and feeling over following a timeline.
For the love of being human. š£²
My take on the track at 6am. (Props to @amarixleflore meeting me for the first time before the sun was up at a track in Nashville)
Continuously aiming to get better; learn more, create a feeling. One of my goals within this busy season was to stay creative in my work; Weddings & Fitness can be repetitiveāonly if you allow them to be. Technically, yes, there are a lot of similar shots between the first kiss down the aisle in a wedding to the same mandatory poses in bodybuilding, but each person has their own story and each day deserves to be approached with that.
I think itās easy to get in your own way, especially as a creative. What we do is art; it was described to me recently as being a vulnerable thing and I hadnāt looked at it from that perspective before.
There is a balance to be found (and one that Iām still working towards) between chasing constant improvement and being able to take a moment to be proud of what you have done already. Nobody that was ever great at anything began as the best.
If youāre waking up excited for the day, well, isnāt that the entire point?