So this is me :)
I created this account as an attempt to practise self expression and reflections around my experiences in the journey of finding myself.
Keeping it public and anonymous was a way for me to commit and to feel free while I still was figuring myself out.
Life has been incredibly generous in bringing experiences to this journey and for the good and bag experiences, I am grateful.
7 years have past since then and I think I finally have an idea of who I am am, who I want to become and what I want to achieve.
With that, I decided there is no need for this account to be anonymous anymore, so,
To whom this may concern, this is me :)
I am not a vegan. I enjoy junk food. But I love to learn about organic and how to become more sustainable. I know a little about many things, much about nothing. Perhaps a bit more about things that I worry about, such as ethical fashion. Other things matter to me as well. The impacts of illegal drug trafficking. And recycling. And copyrights of music and movies. I guess I am quite random. A little narcissistic as well? I am a terrible photographer, an even worse writer, but I like to register stuff. I love to see people connecting, feeling included and valued. I love to travel. I am miles away from perfection in anything specific. I am still not sure about my mission in this life, but I have been searching for a while. I am trying to find myself, trying to be better. And in this journey I have discovered beautiful places, people and things, that I want to share over here. And maybe in the meantime I'll get better at writing, recycling and doing good things to myself and to the world :).
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Sometimes, one can be considered open-minded but actually it's because they're alienated. Let me explain through the opposite situation.
Traveling has since long been a great source of joy, and to an extent, part of my (lack of) identity. I've also seen myself in tricky, uncomfortable situations, and found myself to be prejudiced and judgemental. But only because I have allowed myself to burst my bubble to begin with.
I found these 2020 notes describing my change of heart about Muslim men. Before I went to Ghana, I had never worked with a concentration of men from different countries, backgrounds, ages and religions before. I was curious and "open-minded", or so I thought. And very naive.
I dislike being called "nice". Being nice has led me to my own imprisonment.
Kind, on the other hand is one the qualities I treasure the most. Kindness, combined with a pinch of stubbornness, has led me to find myself in situations described by these notes.. Despite the harm they have caused, to be able to see the vulnerability in men and the impact of their backgrounds, and comprehend, maybe not all of it, but a little bit more than before.
I'm known for overthinking, and as my birthday approaches, I get reflective of my life.
Sometimes I ask myself what the hell is happening, and then when I look at things in perspective I realize that: yeah, no wonder.
I keep telling myself I want to settle down. Ground myself somewhere, with someone.
My actions seem to tell me otherwise.
I am Japanese Brazilian with Dutch childhood memories, was a teenager in a German school for rich kids in the countryside of são Paulo. Took a while only there to figure out what I was.
Fast forward to my 30s, I'm now half way to my 40s. My dad used to say that every 7 years a new cycle starts in his life. Since I turned 30, this cycle has shortened into 2.
Every now and then I feel stuck, not knowing where I'm going or what I'm doing. I keep having to remember to let go and trust the big picture to show itself. That God, the universe, whatever you call it, knows better.
At 30, I left a stable job to study in India. One day after I turned 32, I moved to Ghana and came back to Brazil during my 34th.
I'm excited to trust in what the 36th year holds for me.
I used to miss my ability to see the world with the innocence of before.
in other words, the inability to see the world as it is.
I realize now that the real beauty lies in the effort of trying even after the pink bubble has burst. When love and light, as described in my bio, is there but not in an obvious way and requires effort to see.
Since I couldn't see, I felt like I had nothing to say in this platform.
In the end, it's in seeing the beauty despite of it. Seeing goodness without judging and looking for perfection. Loving consciously, for what you see.
I watched an episode of modern love Mumbai - I love Thane by Dhruv Seghal- and it transported me to that time of discovering myself.
That sweet spot of embarking in a new life without having the understanding of what that could mean and come with it. It made me remember how time, as described by Saib, is a fourth dimension.
And it reminded me of a funny moment of my childhood. My mom had grounded me and while I was sitting at the corner of her room, I was so upset, I closed my eyes and said to myself that I would capture that moment forever. As if I was creating a sample of that time in the library of my brain. It was such a simple and forgettable moment, but because of that intention, it's as if I can time travel to that moment whenever I want.
Years later, as I realized how I never forgot that simple moment purely because of the "brain's library" exercise, I started using the same tool to collect more moments throughout my life. Of mundane moments I intentionally wanted to register.
Once I was with an ex-boyfriend and shared the "brain's library" story for the first time with someone else. We then recorded that moment in our brains.
I realized through Thane that that is one of the things I miss the most in having a partner. Those moments of mundane intimacy, of sharing simple thoughts that mean something to us and in the long run builds that unity.
Thane makes me travel in time through one of those moments I captured in my "brain's library", while beautifully portraying those simple moments of intimacy as a walk in the park.
19/05/2022
