1. I got married at 18 and was divorced by 19.
2. I grew up apart of the LDS church in a small farming town. (but I am not apart of that faith anymore)
3. I have ADHD and struggle with starting/finishing certain tasks.
4. I battled with severe depression for most of my life up until about 4 years ago.
5. I was told at 21 that my ovaries worked like a 35-40 year old womanās and had to start thinking of freezing my eggs at that age thinking I wouldnāt ever have babies naturally.
6. I have social anxiety and struggle with making friends.
7. I may or mayyyy nottttt have a high school diploma. š¤·š¼āāļø
8. I love facts, information, & learning more than most things.
9. I despise surface level convos and love deep meaningful connections.
10. I had always struggled with self worth due to lack of examples of that in my life, up until I had my son.
Life is wild, and what a journey itās been to get to this version of myself! š šš¼ grateful to be ever evolving.
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They actually had to pry this outfit off of meā¦oops. Thatās what happens when the clothes are THAT GOOD @shopzoco š
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Iāll say it again for the people in the back. Someone choosing to protect their peace and practice healthy boundaries is not out to get you.
Instead of blaming them for the outcome of YOUR choices, you could try looking inward and start taking responsibility. Or not. Do you, but donāt be mad when people keep choosing better for themselves and youāre not included in that!
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Moments Iāll never forgot.
I never posted these from last year, but man has he grown so much. I need to get updated pictures with my boy š„²
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1. Accepting that others can only meet you as deep as they are willing to meet themselves.
2. No longer choosing to lose myself, trying to prove my worth to others.
My entire life I have endlessly lost myself fighting to show others that Iām āworth staying for,ā āworth understanding,ā āworth giving patience to,ā so on and so forth. All while I was neglecting my own worth, the more they neglected me. I took it all personal. I took it as a reflection of how āunlovable I must be.ā When Iām reality it was only ever a reflection of their internal world. How they view themselves. How deeply they were choosing to meet their own emotions & needs.
The moment I chose to stop chasing others understanding, acceptance, or love, is the moment that has almost broken me. And quite frankly I think it actually has.
As cheesy as this may sound, I know that I have to be completely broken down in order to rebuild myself. I am in the middle of enduring unimaginable loss. The hard I have had to choose and bare the weight of is breaking me in ways I couldāve never imagined and I am having to just watch it unfold. I have to trust myself through it all. I have to trust that I will show up for me everyday. That I will care for my own needs, act on my intuition, trust the fall, and know that as long as I show up for myself day in and day out regardless of outside noice or approval. I will slowly be able to love, trust, and accept myself.
This year I choose to trust myself and to rebuild from the darkest of darks. Send prayers cause we in IT. Lol š„²šš¼
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Hi. š«¶š¼ reality for me, is the last few months have been the hardest and darkest Iāve experienced yet. (peep slide 3 for a full menty-b lol) the weight has felt unbearable at times. But through it all I am learning, growing, and being stretched in ways I couldnāt have imagined. The pain ebs & flows but so does the joy. So just taking it day by day, working on giving myself the grace that is needed, and through that seeing my light and health come back. But damn this shit is HARD š š„²
