Oh 2016? On the surface, I was definitely way cooler then. I sat behind Rihanna at the Grammys, played Boiler Room in Shanghai, hung out with Murakami in Japan, Joe Jonas in Rome, and Bono in Malibu, partied at Diddyâs in Miami (not like that), went to Burning Man on a private jet, danced for days at Revolver in Melbourne, toured Underground Resistance studios in Detroit and Seinfeld studios in LA, went to parties hosted by Alexander Wang and The Weeknd, spoke on panels in Amsterdam and Mumbai, rode jet skis with the locals in Fiji, had my own butler at the St. Regis in the Maldives, traveled the world with my closest friends, hosted a regular club night in LA, and got verified on Instagram back before you could pay for it.Running Skrillexâs OWSLA label was my whole life 24/7. Skrillex & Diplo won 2 Grammys for Jack Ă with Justin Bieber, we premiered our first short film with Kanye in attendance, recorded a radio show for Apple in Sao Paolo before showcases at SXSW and Ultra, produced a music video with Rick Ross & Jared Leto as The Joker, toured Europe and Australia, and capped it off with an epic Mannequin Challenge in Fiji. It was a really special time for dance music in the US, and we were just kids riding the wave all over the world.Â
Behind the scenes, I was seriously addicted to weed, unintentionally emotionally abusive to others, and super stressed out all the time. Instead of working on myself, I hid behind aloofness. An important turning point in my life was 2016 in Fiji when I was getting ready to DJ: I was dead sober because weed is super illegal there, and my brain just wouldnât function without it.
@liamunderwood said âsucks you have to be high in order to do your jobâ and it stuck with me. I hated the idea of depending on weed or anything else. 2016 was the year I finally learned that no amount of stuff will bring you happiness. Wherever you go, there you are; and if you donât like who you are, it doesnât matter where you go. Soon after, I left everything behind, got rid of all my stuff, and started an 8-year spirit quest of sorts to figure it all out. Iâll always be so grateful for these experiences to show me there was more to life than clout.