Benjamin

It feels strange to say it, but I love working with wounds and trauma because that soil is FERTILE. Do you want to hear more about this? If yes, drop a comment with what you’d like to hear more about or what it brings up for you. There’s SOOooo much more to go into here but I was trying to keep it under 10 minutes. #chiron #astrology #tarot #pain #alchemy #psychology #dreams #trauma

I never realized how out of my body I was until I got sober and started seeing a somatic (body-centered) therapist. As I started learning how to send my awareness into my body, I quickly saw, and viscerally felt, why I had unwittingly avoided my body for so long. Pain. The body is constantly communicating to us. Every sensation, every exhilaration, and every pain is a message. Looking back, I can clearly see how I was using substances and other means of dissociation (even daydreaming as a kid) in an unconscious attempt to feel safe, to feel some relief from the tension constantly carried in my flesh and bones. The longer the wound is ignored, the louder the pain becomes. Although it was initially excruciating to practice being present in the body and feel the pain that I had ignored for years, that has been the pathway to healing. Feeling the hurt is necessary in order to hear what the wounds need and start returning to wholeness. Restoring awareness to my body also helped me return to the heart. The love, tenderness, and sacredness that I can feel in the heart center has been an immense resource that makes it possible to weather through the challenges. As the storms wash away, there's a sense of redemption, hope, and beauty that grows in the heart, shining out like a persistent lighthouse. For this body painting, I traced my body onto a large paper and then filled it in. When I was working on the painting, it was as if I was observing and manipulating my astral or metaphysical self. The painting gave the unseen contents stored in my body a way to make themselves seen. Image: “The Body Knows, The Body Holds”, mixed media on paper, 60 x 36 inches, 2023 • • • • • #benjonmiller #drawing #trauma #therapy #somatichealing #painting #art #artwork #pencil #painting #worksonpaper #surrealism #magick #symbolism #alchemy #santafe #newmexico #instaart #instaartist #instaartwork

This bear came from a dream. All of my dreams seem to deliver a necessary message. Sometimes the message hurts. Sometimes it's uplifting and vitalizing. In this dream, I had painted intuitively designed sigils (magical symbols) of love, onto distorted, messed-up-looking teddy bears. Alejandro Jodorowsky, an artist and tarologist who occasionally visits my dreams, helped me mount the bears to a wall to be proudly seen and displayed. I woke up with the conviction that I had to give these bears physical form. They feel like vessels of love for which my inner child longs. Here you go, little Benjamin. I love you so much. "Love Bear #2", 2022 (swipe to see Love Bear #1) Image description: A gushy, watery red and white teddy bear with humble g3n3tal1a. 4 arms hugging itself. Viney green love sigils float around the image. #benjonmiller #drawing #poem #painting #art #artwork #pencil #painting #kunst #미술 #dibujo #coloredpencil #paper #worksonpaper #prismacolor #surrealism #magick #symbolism #alchemy #santafe #newmexico

We are so excited for our FREE resource share event on Sunday 5/17 at @relay.santafe with @theburritobrigade !!! Here is another community member offering: Benjamin Miller is a tarot reader, artist, psychotherapist, and dream-worker. They will be offering free tarot readings at the Free Resource Share Event at Relay on May 17th: “We each have so much medicine inside of ourselves, but it sometimes gets obscured by trauma, chaos, or pain. My approach to tarot readings is a collaborative one that helps you access your heart’s wisdom and befriend, transmute, or soften some of the barriers that may stand in the way. I’ll share my perceptions and offer intuitive questions as you find your way through the mirror of the cards.” Benjamin will be offering readings from 2-6pm on Sunday! We can’t wait to see you! 💜🌈 #queercommunitycare #resourceshare #freeresources

it’s a different kind of bubble bath 🩸🕷️🖤

holy vomit in the soil feeding flowers

What helps you access your intuitive capacity to KNOW? What gets in the way? Drop a comment :) #tarot #tarotcards

a white rose made red by a blazing moon #poem #poetry #chiron

I never expected to have a ritual prompted in part by a 90s bloodhound gang song, but here we are 🔥💧 #magick #ceremony #reiki #plantmagic

Did you relate to anything you heard? Any reflections on the cards drawn? Drop a comment if you feel inclined to share! ♥️If you’re interested in meeting for a full tarot reading— or if you’re curious about it and have questions—send me a DM :) ♠️Available virtually or IRL in Santa Fe, NM ♦️Siding scale: $75-$150 ♣️My approach to readings is collaborative. We focus mainly on what you see in the cards and how it reflects yourself and your life. I help you through that exploratory, intuitive process, which comes pretty naturally for people once we get into it. I will add some of my own observations and questions to help you delve into the reflection shown through the mirror of the #tarot #tarotreading #astrology

a poem + mood board for eclipse wheeeeeek #poetry

I am the tree of the blood of your memories the tree you became in the stories you told yourself to survive the stories you couldn’t speak or see the tales that whispered from within your pillow into the dreams that planted seeds in your skull until the day arrived that the whispered seeds became screaming blossoms whose songs of remembrance tore your skull wide open to let the rain come in