Ever wondered what’s it like to speak 8 languages? For me it’s not just about speaking four of them for work. The chaos unfolds when i mix them together all in my mind. I dream in them. Sometimes my thoughts switch halfway through them. I even dream in them.
All this is chaotic but it is also part of who i am and how i function in life. I would like to keep this chaos that way. #polyglot #languagelearning
I’ve been reflecting lately on how every series of events that involve someone’s death around me, never sits well in my heart. I don’t know how to process it because I’m carrying a graveyard maybe in my heart of all my loved ones. My father when i was 9. The first boy who taught me what love is died in his homeland kashmir, a week before my birthday. I do not wish this upon my worst enemy to live with this feeling of a loved one dying on you. Without a break up, without kissing you good bye. Lovers, especially, I’m going to wait for you all of my life if i have to but I won’t let this happen again you will see. Clinical depression is something i can help you live with. One needs to just learn how to live with it. I can heal you. I’m fully yours. If you’re reading this wait for the next news because I really hope this reaches you while you’re scrolling this stupid app at night and that it makes you think of me. Because I’m all in pathan soab.
