this is gonna my be first & my last time of being 27 years old on the 27th of april
memori ulang tahun dari dulu selalu baik, tiup lilin, kado, makan makan, dan kumpul di rumah. pastii rame. terbiasa sama yg menyenangkan, jadi pas gede kalau ga sesuai ekspektasi sedikit langsung sedih… lumayan banyak transisi untuk menerima kehidupan menjadi ‘org dewasa’ ituh.
there are days where i hated birthdays, sekarang dirayakan atau engga, rame ataupun sepi, i still love it anyway. i have family that never leaves, and friends that i know they love me as much as i love them. i have my cats and i can enjoy my life & still got hobbies, no matter how messy it is. kalau liat org lain, banyak juga yg belum dimiliki, tp kalau liat diri sendiri… ooh banyak kok ini. banyak belajar untuk bisa merasa cukup.
i still carry every version of myself all in this 27 years old body,
what I’ve learned this far is; people can get busy with their lives, and it can make you feel lonely. but if you know what you want, and you can celebrate yourself in any way, even by yourself, then there’s really nothing else to worry about.
cause at the end of the day, people will think about themselves, jd kl kamu gapikirin diri kamu sendiri dulu, who’s gonna put you first?
💚🌷🐸⭐️
glad i documented everything, i knew our time is limited ^_^
from “kamu harus hidup, jangan mati ya… tahan”
to: “kalau kamu gakuat, gapapa ya nyerah aja…”
punya kucing banyak dari dulu, udah lebih dari 10x kehilangan, liat kematiannya depan mata, sampai yg pergi jauh, karena kucing itu kalau bisa, pemiliknya gak liat dia mati
ramen,
kucing kita yang bawel, kalau kita tanya dia jawab, walaupun gatau apa maksudnya, we pretend we understand eachother’s language and it worked
normal,
pet loss is something we often end up blaming ourselves for, berkali-kali minta maaf, semoga ramen maafin kami sekeluarga, walaupun di satu sisi “we did the best we could”,
terima kasih ya ramen, sudah ksh banyak pelajaran, semoga ramen di sana, di manapun itu, ada sofa buat ramen dan bisa nonton tv ya
kata mama “terima kasi udah jd kesayangan mama”, karena mama kegiatannya netflix terus, di situlah ramen duduk nyender sambil ngorok..
kalau peliharaan sudah waktunya pergi, berarti pelajaran yang ia mau kasih udh cukup, katanya…
till we meet again my friend 💚🩷
i always think about my mom & dad when i sing this ^__^ the first time i listened to this song i was 10, now i’m much older and it still feels the same
(butterfly fly away - miley cyrus)
