Billie Eilish Hit Me Hard and Soft: The Tour in 3D! Go See it! Incredible and out now! Amazing night at the Premiere with this gorgeous gal!
Last week was a good birthday week! 🥰 #love #film #life
Looking into a new era! And I had photos back from a shoot so thought I’d post one…. Here’s to being far more productive, motivated, gracious and willing in the future. “In the immortal words of The Doors, ‘The time to hesitate is through’”.
Photo by @mahaziaphotography ♥️
#happybirthday #anotheryear #empirerecords
I’m actually super upset that @projecthailmary is leaving IMAX this week! Only got to see it 4 times and I loved it more every time! Exceptional film, superb performances. Grounded, wholesome, hilarious, devastating, wonderful. Shout out to another ship’s voice going down in history to @priyakansara
#love #cinema #projecthailmary #IMAX
Photo by @lexy_matthews ♥️
Today I am 11 years sober.
I woke up today and this photo was the first thing on my wallpaper. This very cool experience with a lovely human wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t made the decision to fight my demons, get help, and not give in to a deep-rooted urge to drink to hide from my pain, trauma, and very low self-worth.
This very sweaty day in June — and a super fun time to dress up (because we know I love a theme) — would more likely have turned into an embarrassing blackout, with me waking up in hospital again… if I woke up.
Drinking was dark. It was an excuse to make the intrusive thoughts I was running from an even darker reality. The friendships I have now, and my amazing family, have made it easier to keep the desire to give in to that darkness at bay. I still struggle — a lot — sometimes crippled with cravings for the abyss in a bottle, but I fight to stay straight for them and for myself.
I am not living my best or perfect life, but I am alive, which I most certainly wouldn’t be if I hadn’t stopped. That means I still have the opportunity to change my life into the one I want, counting my blessings along the way.
For those who are struggling, please reach out. I will always largely credit my sobriety to AA and the people I met in the rooms. Meeting people who don’t judge you, and who understand it’s not just about “managing your drinking,” or “just stopping before you get drunk,” or “trying to just have one,” made a big difference in helping me stay sober. It also gave me the space to be open about the deep and messed-up things in my head, identify my trauma, and push myself to get the help I needed.
Thank you to everyone in my life who has chosen to stick with me and love me through my darkness and in my light. And thank me for always just walking out the supermarket if I find it too hard not to buy the scotch.
#love #sobriety #11yearssober #onedayatatime #soberversary
Ah Day 2 in New York - Central Park, Boathouse for lunch, MoMa and Death Becomes Her!!! What makes it better is the company ♥️ Sooo good! #love #friendtrips #newyorkcity #centralparknyc #momanyc #deathbecomesher
The new year has begun and today feels good! This is one of my favourite alterations I made for this wonderful day in NYC! #love #fashion #friendship and #travel
Some more highlights of one of the main things that kept my soul full this past year. Alanis Morissette, Skunk Anansie, Linkin Park and all the rest! Yay! #love #music #life
This year, despite everything, has been amazing. I have made some amazing new friends, done amazing things, seen amazing art, and have given and received love, true love. Fuck everything else. The strong friendships and my family have gotten me through and I look forward to pushing through the pain to keep experiencing that. Putting the bullshit behind me. Thank you everyone and look forward to growing. #love #friendship #family #joy #fuckthepain #movingfoward
