“The pain is stronger than ever. I’ve seen bits of lost Paradises and I know I’ll be hopelessly trying to return even if it hurts. The deeper I swing into the regions of nothingness the further I’m thrown back into myself, each time more and more frightening depths below me, until my very being becomes dizzy. There are brief glimpses of clear sky, like falling out of a tree, so I have some idea where I’m going, but there is still too much clarity and straight order of things, I am getting always the same number somehow. So I vomit out broken bits of words and syntaxes of the countries I’ve passed through, broken limbs, slaughtered houses, geographies. My heart is poisoned, my brain left in shreds of horror and sadness. I’ve never let you down, world, but you did lousy things to me.”
—Jonas Mekas in As I Was Moving Ahead, Occasionally I Saw Brief Glimpses of Beauty (2000)
“Praying isn’t really talking to God. It’s acknowledging the despair to throw yourself on the ground because that’s all you can do.”
Joachim Trier summer forever!! @sentimentalvaluefilm 🤍
