Our FOCUS is on the scintillating @amaeyaaaa as she offers a slow burning rendition of her song “Let Me Remind You”.
“Let Me Remind You” was the product of a moment of emotional inhibition. The only way to let it out was sing about it, a long 4 minute freestyle singing into her laptop.
Choosing her words in a way that wouldn’t take away how real her love is and the good experiences that came with it.
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I thought about not posting this video it was supposed to be a subtle moment but the sudden tears as the song started to play…. I just couldn’t control it.
I’ve been crying a lot lately cus some feelings just never go away.
Some experiences they leave an everlasting scar, so you spend all your life trying to heal from it because you know deep down you can be better . (This was my TikTok caption)
Really what I wanted to say is that I am not Okay
And I’m not ashamed to admit it anymore..
I’m human
Not some glorified being who has life figured out
I’m filled with so much anger ,shame, guilt , pain but over them all I am filled with great Love so much love that it hurts so bad
Love that makes me see everything and everyone in rainbows
I’ve never let my pain cross beyond me to hurt anyone else near me
So I hide myself, I reduce my expectations, I bottled up all the trauma inside me until it became a raging storm that needed antidepressants to keep calm.
I don’t have to feel guilt about anything I didn’t cause
But I do …..every day
And every day I have to wake up and forgive myself all over again like I didn’t just do it yesterday
I don’t want pity…
But I just don’t want to pretend anymore and smile like I usually do just to keep everyone around me comfortable
What about me ??? Do I not deserve comfort Why can’t I put me first this time
I should be permitted to cry in public if I’m breaking
Why do I have to bottle it up
I wanna be working out at the gym and cry
I wanna walk on the street and cry
I wanna sit in a park or in a danfo and cry
Why are we all pretending to be fine???
And call it strength
What type of strength is that if it tears me up and out from my guts
I want to release myself from this bondage
I want out
Out of the METRIX
I’m jinxing myself out!
I have potential, I am born of Christ
Even Christ felt his feelings, he was betrayed beaten Jesus wept! So why can’t I???
I am more than my trauma
I deserve a different reality
I am capable of giving myself the love I deserve
I forgive myself
I deserve certainty and stability. I deserve love we all do ❤️
Some songs are just songs,
But this song is like a clear window
opened for you to see my heart’s pain.
I & @thekotrell ,We made this one for you ❤️🩹
Out now everywhere..
Visuals out on YouTube 2 💖
Some promises break quietly… but the hearts they touch don’t heal the same ❤️🩹
EASY FOR YOU with @amaeyaaaa is out now! Go listen and share too.🧡
Produced by @zyrxsounds
M&M by @newmix_