Elena
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Paralyzed in trance,
A broken pendulum giving no direction.
My tears do nothing to mute the chaos of thoughts, but no help is found through dry cheeks either.
A compress to my chest, exhausting my breathe. I choke on indecision.
I try to connect with this moment, fleeting yet eternal. This self inflicted groundhogs day sewn through my heavy heart.
seeping heart of sorrow
flooding me in rot
choking on the poison
of all the things I’m not
eyes black and blinded
moving without sight
calling out to any god
any will, any hope, any fight
no one can save me, change me
no one can bring me light
so I fold into this darkness
and rest into the night
Brilliance/MUA/Photo by incredible bestie @luispizarrobeauty
Truly wish I could look like this everyday
@mutinymadz
What an honor to share space with a human like you. I’m deeply honored to have friends who passionately care about humanity, justice and community. I’m inspired to look inward and be better just by being around you, Madalia. You are a force, you are a leader and organizer and a sweetheart to boot. (Also, fine as hell am I right 😚)
Wishing you growth, rest, adventure, solace, inspiration, breakthrough and whatever else you dream of on your journey to Palestine + Lebanon. I’m honored to have a seat in your life and eagerly await your smile, laugh and hugs whenever you come back. I love you!
Makeup by @luispizarrobeauty 💗
🚐✨LIFE UPDATE!!✨ 🚐
2025 kicked my ass! What better way to start 2026 by announcing I signed a bill of sale for my first *home* today!!
A converted camper van! She’s due to be finished with her build mid January, and Nevvy 🐈⬛ and I will be trying out a whole new lifestyle with the support of friends and community.
I’ve been chatting about this with a smaller circle of people and have been met with such support and encouragement. I am SO grateful.
I’m excited to take my love for road tripping and exploring to the next level and challenge myself in a new way. I’ve felt long overdue for a whole new reset from the way I’ve been living. I look forward to having more slow moments and taking time to tap into different pieces of life that my current lifestyle can’t bring me.
I’ve researched a ton, but feel that nothing can truly prepare me for this change. I’ve learned this last year to ask for help and support and I know I’ll get a lot more practice this year doing something so new to me.
I’ll be keeping yall updated as we go along, but I want to extend endless gratitude for those in my corner. Thank you x a gazillion.#vanlife
