thank you for the pinch me moment @honeycuttheidi Heidi gave me a platform and a spotlight when @etheriafn premiered my short film The Final Girl Returns on Shudder - it was there my film won the audience award, and as a result became part of the Horror Collective’s Beyond the Dark anthology series. (You can watch it on Tubi!) It’s because of Heidi I got to meet the incredible horror film community in Los Angeles, and get to be mentioned amongst a community of women in horror that have come before me, paved the path for me, and continue to blaze a fiery trail ahead of me. It’s an honor and a privilege. That being said, I am excited for what’s to come. 💖 Here’s to the champions of women in horror. We will always be here.
it still doesn’t feel real because I don’t want it to be. Already the house is more quiet. And I can’t think of everything I have to ask you yet but I know the questions will come. Right now I just miss you. It’s hard to share this because this makes it real. That you aren’t here anymore. And you were so funny so sharp so smart and so cool. I hope you know how loved you were and proud of you I am. There’s a hole in my heart the size of you, and I know nothing will ever fill it. I am still trying to think of the words. But I wish everyone could have known you. they would have known how vulnerable and deeply empathetic you were, how massive your heart was, how generous you were with your love. I am so lucky that so many things remind me of you. I love movies because of you. I know you were proud of me, but I was proud of you too. I hope you knew that, I hope you know that, and I will always push myself forward because of you. I know that’s what you would want. Because you are in everything now. I love you always, dad.
Sad to say one of my oldest little friends has passed away. Sansa was part of a litter of kitten Starks found at my parent’s old house back in 2014 - this was right before my dad got out of the hospital and we moved elsewhere. She had a meow like a squeak and eyes bulging like that of an alien. She liked to follow you around the house and give your shoulder a massage with her little paws. She liked to crowd the dinner plate and try and steal your human food, no matter what it was. She liked to sleep in the shower and wait for you outside the bathroom. Every time I visited home, she was indisputably the most excited to see me. She was a favorite amongst my family and friends, and me, especially me. Love her so dearly. That squeak will be missed.
Happy birthday to my Dad, he would have been 66 today. My dad was a vivacious storyteller - there was never a time I wasn’t laughing hysterically or absolutely engaged in everything he was saying. He was hilarious, intelligent, he loved blasting the volume during a car chase scene and playing the most horrifying scenes on repeat just to see them do it again. He loved Led Zeppelin - he loved his dad rock, and shit, he’s the reason I love it too! My dad loved movies and talking to me about movies. He wanted me to watch all the classics. The Shining at Thanksgiving, Jaws, Bullitt, Alien, all before I was ten. My dad taught me to dream big; and be an even bigger person. Have a big heart. Have big empathy. Big laughs, big hugs, big love. Now I get to miss him big time. He was larger than life and now he’s larger than everything. Playing the music loud for him today.
