1 year sober π€
to say I never thought Iβd see the day of me being 1 year sober is an absolute understatement, let alone even 1 day honestly. crazy how doctor prescribed pain meds from 15 years old (morphine, dilaudid, percocet, fentanyl all within those years and they just kept prescribing more???) to being randomly cut off at 21 years old after 6 years of prescribed daily use due to βnot wanting to cause addictionβ, to buying scripts off people just to even feel normal, to just a year ago now at 30 years old literally crying to myself, wondering how the fuck I let it ruin and control my life so much, begging for it to just stop. iβm so glad to have came out on the other side of this, especially when so many do not. including multiple friends of mine. even after putting myself first and making this change, having the right support was one of the BIGGEST parts of it. especially after finally forcing myself to feel everything again for the first time in years, that was something I definitely was not prepared for. and for the longest time I didnβt have any support at all between being in toxic/abusive relationships, dealing with doctors who literally didnβt care, family living far away, not having the right friends, trying to hide my addiction, working full time, all while trying to be normal was just insane. it made getting sober so much harder. but i finally left all of that, put myself first and decided to get sober after YEARS of telling myself I needed to. and it was so worth it. iβll take the pain over the pills anyday. i definitely underestimated how much the support around me would make such a positive difference, and it did. and still does. π€ thank you everyone for all the love and support for my 1 year, itβs definitely more important to me than I could ever put into words so thank you π₯Ήπ€
iβm a whole new woman.
IβM ONE YEAR FUCKING SOBER BITCHES!
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17 months sober π€
i will never not celebrate every milestone i accomplish with my sobriety this time around. when i first got sober for 6 months in 2017, i was so embarrassed. i hid it, never talked about it, acted like i wasnβt struggling. but this time? iβm not holding back, because i deserve the good that comes with healing that broken part of me. i deserve to celebrate it out loud and have those who truly love, support me & have been there for me be able to celebrate it with me too. i was an βundercover addictβ for so long, i hid it from literally everyone. but now i want to be able to show those who are silently struggling too that you can do it. you absolutely can get out of it, you can make that step and change for the better, you can make it out of this alive. i get asked all the time if iβm surprised that iβm still here and to be honest, i absolutely am. these 17 months have been beyond challenging and difficult, and to even say that is an absolute understatement, but iβve grown so much and have become such a stronger, better, kinder, softer version of myself i never knew truly existed. the self love, self respect, personal boundaries & hard lines iβve drawn are all things im still learning, but have gotten so much better and stronger with as well. as hard as these 17 months have been, even with countless moments i wanted to relapse and had every single reason in the world to, i never did. i stayed strong & i kept going, even when i really didnβt want to. and despite it all thatβs what iβm going to keep on doing. despite those who want to see me fail, who make my sobriety so much harder, who never had faith in me, iβm going to keep fucking going. iβm going to keep proving all of you wrong and iβm only going to keep getting better. 17 months ago i wouldβve never imagined iβd be sober for even a day, let alone a week, month, and especially not a year. but here i am. 17 whole fucking months later, still sober, still going strong, still getting better, and still working my ass off for the life i deserve. and thatβs more than enough for me. hereβs to a lifetime of celebrating each and every one of my sobriety milestone because i fucking deserve it β¨
