I had an awful day today. I hoped it would be fine as the other day but it just didn't go so well. After coming home, I wanted to talk with my mother about my future career because one of my friends broke my passion even just a little bit. He told me that there is no future for me unless I follow the major I'm in. Also, he indicated that even after I chose my dream career, it would be too late.
For a while, I had to put up with his overwhelming speech.
But I couldn't stop thinking about what he said to me the whole day. I couldn't focus on my lecture and had to be left alone with my thoughts until my seance came. It was my last seance, so I didn't want to bring this topic which made me feel sensitive.
Arriving home, I couldn't hold my urge to hug my mother. Then I sat near her and started talking about what happened that morning. She asked me "Then why did you choose this major if you didn't want to study it?"
I said "Because I had no choice other than that and when I told you that I wanted to study Fine Arts 5 years ago, you postponed my request."
She scoffed and said "When did we hinder that?", and added unrelated things as she kept speaking. I felt too fragile and unseen so I calmly went to my room. Though I started crying after I closed the door just like the moment I started crying 5 years ago.
Arts, music and literature are the mediums I find happiness in. Creating with my emotions is what gives me hope for my future. But now, I feel so hopeless
#digitalart #illustration #animeart #ocart #originalcharacter
"You want me to eat this?? This is concrete!"
This drawing is one of my worst drawings I believe
I felt too lazy to finish this and I'm actually a slow drawer too (this everyday challenge is so hard to keep up with) that's why, i focused on the expression and nothing else π
Pt.5?π i betrayed my own rules but I can't just stop like how I want to
#sketch #digitalart #art
Get your knees done
Run to me
Hug me and do more
More than you imagine what you could be
Without me and each knee
Say to me
That you love me
Don't speak much
Only listen to your each knee
Listen to them
And grieve for your each knee
Imagine what you could do with me
Only me and me
And not your each knee
Happy Valentine's Dayπ€πͺ»
#valentines #illustration #digitalart #ocart #obsession
Wanted to be a vase
They said I was insane
But I was sane enough to realize I was a vase
They said I was too fragile
But I was happy in the end anyways
And I could not leave without shattering
#ocart #myart #mangaart #originalcharacter #digitalart
