“developing a relationship with the wildish nature is an essential part of women’s individuation. In order to accomplish this, a woman must go into the dark, but at the same time she must not be irreparably trapped, captured, or killed on her way there or back,”
- @clarissapinkolaestes excerpt from “Women Who Run With The Wolves” 🖤
i would walk through those fires, those heartbreaks, that self - HATRED, the emotional and physical abuse of choosing relationships and employment that reflected my dark and broken relationship with mySELF…..I would do it all again and again and AGAIN….
because here I am 🤍 the woman i have always dreamed of being, creating the life, and the career, and the LOVE i have always dreamed of building.
thank you #Yaweh your love is mighty. your grace is unending. i have been #forgedinfire and in the rawness and the tenderness of healing I see YOU and YOUR guiding hand in all of it. You have never forsaken me. i love you 🥹🖤
#womenwhorunwiththewolves #warrior #healing #broken #badbitch #2023 #growth #mindset #transformation #heartbreak #breakup #change #utah #provo #nuskin
I walked a mile in her shoes.
The old me, she dances in the mirror like a halo around my head.
The shadow of who I used to be.
I left her in the darkness last year.
The snake took its final bite,
and my skin fell away and dissipated into the wind.
Shame was the poison, I drank it all my life.
Then love cracked me open, after wandering in Hell.
When I look at my reflection, I see the two of us now.
I used to need her,
Now I simply love Her 🕊️🌊❤️
#poet #shame #MentalHealth #healing #cancer ♋️
i am finding it so hard to surrender. my grip so tight on this idea of “control”. thinking that if, outwardly, the world around me changes….suddenly inside will be pure bliss. sometimes i smile at myself and sometimes i am so very angry. the truth is. I take myself wherever i go. she looks at me in the mirror and from 16 to almost 26 she is still saying “not good enough”. im ready to be done with this. so i am practicing. some days i cry my eyeballs out. some days i feel like im flying. the biggest win ive had in the last 90 days is the gym. no matter how i “feel” in that moment. no matter what happened to me that day or if my diet is perfect or my body is doing exactly what i want. I show up. and i have not let more than a day or two go by before i step back up and step back in. for right now. this is enough 🖤
#gym #mindset #mentalhealth #musclemommy #gains #babygotback
2022: i have never been so humbled or quite so broken. the darkness came close to consuming me. 2023: hopeful again 🤍 life springs abundantly forward and i am letting go of who i have been. some still place this identity upon me like an old pair of clothes ive grown out of. i don’t mind so much anymore. the habit to please others is still there like a knee jerk reaction. but im fighting it better. some days i am the best version of myself. some days im a mess. in the end the hardest love ive ever been faced with has been my own and how to love and accept myself just as i am, yet pushing ever forward into that great unknown 🖤
#love #aesthetic #poetry #gymrat #darkaesthetic #feminine #cancerzodiac
it’s called growth and I’m here for it but damn 💀🤍😭 old or triggering situations arise and I find myself sucked automatically into old ways of thinking and reacting 🖤 in these moments I try to be so gentle. I talk through it with a friend or I journal and really compassionately and yet firmly guide myself back to the truth 🤍✨
I am not longer that story. I am no longer that identity. We are unlearning and learning anew. Every day. Unfolding and unending.
#growth #mindset #transformation #cancersign #zodiac
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
Marianne Williamson
#deepestfear #mindset #change #growth #selflove #personaldevelopment #heartbreak #transformation #abuse
“shedding any false identities we have been given” leaving a lifetime of limiting beliefs in 2022. heart break. broken open. i am set free.
#2022recap #womenwhorunwiththewolves #breakup #heartbreak #grief #transformation #hope #love #growth
“I trust that
there is a purpose
in all the things I feel.
Even if the pain
Takes years to heal.
Even if the journey
feels impossible to
explain.
I know that in life
it takes courage
to return home again.”
- “The Way Back Home” by @courtneypeppernell
#cominghome #trustthejourney #certifieddriver
