*Warning for emotional and cheesy words*
In 2018, together with
@vladislost_ , I visited Modem for the first time, and already on the day of our arrival I was completely enchanted by the beautiful location. I still remember saying several times, “I think I’ve arrived in a fairytale.” The music and the entire atmosphere on the Swamp immediately cast a spell over us, and that year, very quietly and subtly, the desire to someday start playing music ourselves was born.
Since 2018, I’ve been to Modem six times now, and I’ve been calling it my favorite festival ever since. Each time it feels more and more like I’m visiting my second home.
With the opportunity to play on exactly this floor this year, the one that has shaped my musical journey so profoundly, a huge dream is coming true for me.
I still can’t fully grasp it, and when I think about it, I feel a mix of overwhelming excitement, anticipation, and also fear.
I'm a rather introverted person and I connect with people in a quieter, more thoughtful way. Small talk doesn't come naturally to me, and in larger crowds I sometimes need a bit more time to feel comfortable. That can make connecting with other artists feel challenging at times, especially because my social battery tends to drain quickly and I occasionally feel a bit socially awkward at parties. From time to time, doubts creep in and I start comparing myself to other artists, asking myself whether I really deserve this gig and thinking about how many other artists would also totally deserve such an opportunity. Sometimes it’s hard to stay grounded and confidently walk my own path.
But then I realize that despite, or maybe even because of, the way I am, I’ve reached this point and now get to share my vision with others. Over the past few years, I’ve been lucky enough to meet so many wonderful people within the scene, and I’m incredibly grateful for that. I’ve also learned that my sensitive nature is not a weakness, it makes me authentic, and I’m allowed to embrace it more and more. I’ve learned that things happen when the time is right, and I want to encourage other artists to walk their path authentically as well.
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