my biggest pixel art — space elevator
I recently tried to analyze why my art is the way it is, not technically, but emotionally. here are my thoughts so far:
in everyday life, I often feel as if I’m bodiless, invisible, like I’m in spectator mode, when you die in a video game but keep watching what’s happening. this perception of the world is reflected in my work
there are no active characters in my images, or they’re very small, turned away, so the environment plays a significant role. it’s as if I merge with the space and try to find a point where our moods intersect
it’s a kind of solitary experience of myself: my memories, impressions, fantasies. not the kind of fantasies with dragons and castles, but the kind where something could have happened in ordinary life, but didn’t. these are fantasies that extend moments, concentrate memories, intertwine them, and build parallel branches of events
it’s not always possible to catch that fleeting, ephemeral feeling; it’s not always possible to draw as sincerely as I would like. creativity confronts me with my own helplessness, but sometimes it gives me the chance to pull something honest out of myself
I often come across my artworks on Pinterest, but recently I saw one of my pieces labeled as AI-generated by the platform. it gave me a strange feeling
the Internet has never been my main source of references, but lately I’ve been relying even more on my own photos and on observing real life. as I mentioned in my stories before, leaving aside the well-known ethical concerns around Al training, there’s something that personally makes me uncomfortable: I need everything in my art to be intentional and thoughtfully created. auto-generated art and ideas take away that sense of intention, and pixel art particularly requires thinking about individual pixels. so I can’t imagine adding generated elements into my work, it would just feel foreign
this is the kind of chaos we’re in: human art can be labeled as AI, scraped to train AI models, any image can now be AI-modified by X users right in the comments, and so on
but I find peace in the meticulous process of creation and it’s not possible to steal the human experience. I simply love drawing too much to give up
new animation 🚂🦉
once, I welcomed the New Year on a train. the reason was tragic, yet somehow the holiday feeling was still there. it lived in the snow outside the window, in the treats laid out on the table, in the cheerful train attendants walking from compartment to compartment in costumes, offering congratulations
that night reminds me that it’s okay to hold mixed emotions. it’s okay to feel sad in a joyful setting, and joyful in the middle of sadness. life is rarely just one thing at a time
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hey, guys! since I work full-time in game development, I don’t have much time to create personal art these days. here’s a video featuring almost all of my vertical animations! they’re also available as wallpapers — this way, I support myself a little as an independent artist alongside my main job. thanks for sticking around!
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