A lady once asked me “why do you act like you don’t deserve love?”
I couldn’t answer, I just looked her in the eyes
There’s more to the story but maybe I’ll share another time
Let it not be for your own benefit but for the ones around you, to be put at ease for the past actions you once committed. Affirmation they will not reoccur and if such actions happen once more it will not lead to absolute ruin
You didn’t leave bruises, you left Scars…
Rub salt on my wounds and I still love you
I hide this agony behind a cheerful laugh and eyes that can tell many stories. This is all I know. Everyday of my life this art is all I know because it is what I live. It’s what I breathe,sweat and cry. I gave my all to this, I bleed out on the curb for this. From looking up at a full moon tears failing down my face as I scream out I’m a failure, I gave my all to this. Yet it is not enough.
Sometimes I fear it never will be.
“It’s not that I gave up on god, it’s that it felt like he gave up on me”
The words for the reason I turn away from it all back when I was younger and those words carry even more weight now more than ever as I find myself in traumatic situations constantly in my everyday life. May this be karma, May this just be the course of life itself or a destiny I’m not in power of anymore; These days have sent my mind into a place even I hesitate to venture.
We all have our own lives and with that struggles we go through. How we perceive them is the reason for what we do next.
This is “Lost in Church”
Just some pics I’ve taken recently I like, I have a lot more I want to post trust me but trying not to go overboard because I still plan on release a book soon. These are all taken through multiple places in Atlanta. I’ve been exploring a lot lately and talk to so many people in different parts of Atlanta. Going through the motions heavy but I mean this heavy when I say I’m holding back a lot of my work I like the most right now until after I can ship physical copies of them. If you also have any work of mine that’s already out you would like printed and delivered let me know! Dm me to talk about arrangements
Elegance and facial beauty masking the darkest secrets, the saddest truths, the most unsettling sorrows and despair that reeks through the dark halls of my mind.
I portray strength but it’s only to diminish the presence of my inner selfishness embodied of a weak devil.
TO feel pity amongst myself is disgust;
More so than my own past actions that have cause thou to hinder shame.
Glee and peace should never see the shadow of my grasp; in this lifetime nor the next do I deserve the pleasure.
Wallow in this pit of despair because that’s all that has been earned for your past endeavors
Suffer
Never know bliss, only Pain
Wither for Eternity
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How could I have done that to you
