This is something Iāve dreamed of doing for so long. If you think you can do something get it done. Confidence is key with anything in life. Felt so good to do something that scared me. That feeling is what we live for baby! Thanks to my friends for pushing me and giving me the opportunity.
445 days clean from drugs and alcohol š¤Æ this video hits differently. Itās one of my favorite riding clips but itās also a reflection for me. I can think of that day or that week and what I was up to and it wasnāt good. Every day was a struggle for me at this time. Not wanting to wake up and get out of bed, thinking do I really have to wake up and do life today. Riding used to be an escape and a way to silence the chaos around me (that I brought into my life myself)
But now? Riding feels like freedom. Not an escape, but a celebration. With a clean mind and soul, I have to work on the obsession part for sure. Itās not healthy for me to criticize every little thing I do when I ride. Instead trying to focus on just being present, enjoying my time I get to ride and also trying to engage with new people and spend time listening to them and getting to know them. Thatās the whole reason I got into this.
I havenāt really posted much about sobriety lately and often have people asking if Iām still sober. The answer is yes, Iām working at it every day or at least almost every day. I have a long way to go but to be happy to wake up in the morning and happy to be living is the best gift of all. I have a lot of past issues to work on and figure out but slowly but surely I am doing that.
For anyone thatās struggling please reach out. Itās nothing to be ashamed about. It gets better.
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Nothing but smiles and smoke with my boy @leno_gonati he told me they were down a few guys for @stuntwarzofficial and asked id want to ride with him and @switchback_steve of course I said yes and Iām glad i did. Something about riding with people youāve rode with for a long time just makes it that much more fun to jump in and have a good time. Geno and Steve are both so talented and Iāve been loving watching them ride and get better and better. Anyways, felt good to have some fun!
Pretty darn stoked on getting 4th place in @stuntwarzofficial with the boys. We were down two riders coming in. And @switchback_steve And I were gonna run the two of us. Steve unfortunately had a get off a week before so he was banged up. We asked our amazing friend @2_slicc to join us the day of and we just went out there and had fun together like old times. Memories like that will last for ever and Iām damn proud of us 3 for going out there and holding it down for @neversurrenderco it was a weekend to tender and weāre ready for the next onešš»
Can we do quarterly photo dumps now? š
These days I donāt talk about my journey nearly as much as I used to. Not for any particular reason ā but lately Iāve been thinking a lot about how many amazing memories Iāve made over the last year, especially the last few months. So many that sometimes itās hard to even process it all.
I truly believe thatās because of the decision I made 900 days ago to change my life ā for me and for the people around me.
Iām not perfect and I never will be. The urge to be perfect is slowly going away one day at a time. But more than anything, Iāve learned that life can be sweeter than our wildest dreams.
Dreams mean nothing without hard work, effort, and sticking with it even when you donāt want to.
I couldnāt be happier, and these photos are just a few moments from the last few months. I couldnāt tell you how many flights Iāve taken, how many states Iāve visited, or how many miles Iāve driven ā but I can say that for every one of those moments Iāve thanked my higher power for the opportunity.
Sorry for the rantā¦ just checking in. š
