I’ve been trying to find the right words for this for a year now and somehow everything still feels too small for what this night meant to me. Last May in Singapore, I finally saw her live after years and something in me quietly shifted.
I was just a kid in secondary school when I first found her on Youtube. While everyone else saw pop stunts and shock values, I saw permission. Permission to be different, to be loud, to feel everything at full volume. And I carried that with me for years without even realizing how deeply it rooted itself into who I became.
After years of watching from afar and behind screen, seeing her live felt like something finally fell into place. In that moment, I understood how deeply she shaped me and still does. The way I see and feel art, the way I let myself exist in it, all rooted in how she loves it so fearlessly. It didn’t feel like just a concert, but like coming home to a version of myself I’ve been growing towards all along since I was 13.
A year since Coachella.
Almost a year since that night.
And tomorrow, the end of the Mayhem Ball tour.
This tour will forever hold a sacred place in my heart.
And I hope I get to find my way back there again, even just with a piano down the corner.
Forever a little monster 🩶
@ladygaga 
